sucker. don't ignore me.

you know how it's feels like
when I look into your eyes.

close your eyes and I'll kiss you

well, few weeks ago when I saw her pictures and name all over the newspaper, I don't think she's hot. Eventually, after watching the movie, I think I agreed with everyone now.


Mind me, I don't think she look hot
but it's that she has character
that's what make her hot.
Nevermind if you don't understand.
She has beautiful eyes :)


Right, I know I'm late but at least I got the chance to watch Transformer in cinema before the fever is over. (it's a must to watch action movie in cinema) Believe me, the hall for Transformer was kinda full yesterday despite the movie was out a month ago. *nod nod* mmhmm! and the movie's awesome. Still rate it as the best action movie ever besides Terminator (for me) although the storyline was kinda suckish this time :/


Just so I know, Megan Fox is 23 this year and so does Shia LaBeouf (read as "SHY-uh luh-BUFF") but apparently she looks older always. Maybe cause Sam still has his boyish-look. *one- shoulder shrug* He's kinda cute in the movie thou..



By the way, Tom Felton is 22 years old :D

Tom Felton
...and girlfriend T.T
Jade Olivia

Jun Yen said, " Tom Riddle is hotter!"




Obviously not, right?!!

the Sweetest Surprise

I'm speechless about Harry Potter.
It just keep disappointing me.
Can't they just have that movie long
like Lord of the Rings? 4 hours?
or make it 2 parts like Red Cliff?
but overall rated.. ok la C:
Now,
you'll tell me what you think bout it after you watch it.

Now I know Hermione has brown eyes,
Ron green eyes and Harry gray eyes.
why do they all have such beautiful eyes <3

but I can't get my eyes off of him!


Not him,
Tom Felton aka Draco Malfoy actually.

He's so hot!!

He's so good to look at!
Can't they just give him a bigger part to act?!

'pray it won't fade away.

I hate it when I go on9.
Can't get my hands off. understand?
Each page lure me into another one.
I'll end up using it for hours.
The more busy I am,
the more interesting is my life,
the more there is for me to update.

It's a crazy July.

First with Malam Bakat then now Hari Koko.

Exams coming! Big movies showing. Layouts to be done.

Money! I've been spending over thousands!
okay. I don't mean to sound big-headed.
Just that I feel so guilty digging money from my mom all the time.
First to pay for the Jackson's dance costume.
Then layout.
They insist on paying for 2 advertisement, to advertise for my scuba instructor and PAWS rather than advertising for their own company or help me find sponsor. Now there's MORE money needed to pay teacher's for notes. For my tuition fees. For my driving lesson. For our graduation day and robe. For the JULY BABIES. Why do people like making love so much in September -_- it's like 20 of them! Yeaya I'm exaggerating but it's really more than 10 presents to buy aight? Including my mom's. Gosh! Headache! It's not my money which makes me feel worst to get it from my parents. I want to say thanks a MILLION to my daddy and mommy. I owe them a lot lot and lots. Nevertheless I was still arguing with them over not allowing me to get involves in activities and hanging out again when they are just trying to reason with me because I score 53 for purata and gotten last in class.

Reminder for myself.
Shan, please grow up to be a wiser person and don't upset or disappoint your parents anymore! For God's sake! No point feeling bad but not doing anything about it. It's time to get serious. You need a bright future to repay them.

O Lord, help me.

you are not alone

falling.
in love?

don't let me fall . Lenka

read.
I love her English.

and the reason is you

beautiful!

I'll be there

You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you, I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you, I'm so glad that I found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and I'll be there

If you should ever find someone new, I know he'd better be good to you
'Cause if he doesn't, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there

(Just look over your shoulders, honey - oo)

I'll be there, I'll be there, whenever you need me, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah

I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there...


My favorite. among all his songs.



I went home.
Watched news.
Listened to radio.
and I just can't hold back the tears anymore.

I used to love him.
and I still adore him.
He was beautiful.
and I love his eyes.
although it's just brown.



but then he decided to change himself.
I was disappointed with him.
Guess you guys was too right.
but then I see that he can still beautiful.

in some other way.

I'll always remember him.
May he rest in peace and Father to bless his soul.

think of me

this was meant to be yours, darling.

the winner takes it all

If I'm not mistaken, that was my first experience on the beach.
Port Dickson.

that's my daddy ^-^
Happy Father's Day Daddy!
and all Daddy in the world!
We shared money bought 2 presents and made a scrap book with a picture in the middle.

Done by Pei Nee. Credits go to her C:
(i don't have photoshop=.=)

okay.. looks good eh? Done by Sony. Sounds good eh?
Sorry to break your bubbles but this movie sucks.
The movie is as long as an hour and half only
and I don't think there's a story line
but the action and killing is passable.
Alright, that's her signature pose. I like it too.
By the way, She's the "sexy/hot" Jun Ji-hyun.
Mmhmm.. she's a korean. Weird huh?
Using a korean star for an Japanese anime.

Don't Speak

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
Don't speak,
Don't speak,
Oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
Don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

Gwen Stefani

takin' back my love

I apologise for having my blog neglected lately :B
but my holiday was frantic enough
that i hadn't got the time to lay my hands on this computer.

what's with all this talking mann!
They speak of, "damnation!" and not "damn!" in those classic stories.

I find the language very attractive, beautiful indeeed.

I'm going to stop these crap cause I got lots to say.

Firstly, I'm to announce that
I've conquered Mount Kinabalu for second time,
during the holiday,
using a longer trail this time.
(oh,, how proud =.=)

while I keep you waiting in suspense
I'm most likely to just talk about the first week of the holiday.
and not about the Sabah trip :/

During exam, I've read

which is.. you know, depressing and touching.

Both Little Black Dress by different author
but with almost same type of story.

During holiday, read

action plus a little of romance.
something different from Judith Mcnaught.

4th book about this crazy woman.

If you're going after city and modern lives,
you'll like Confession of an Air Hostess, Memoirs are Made of This
and Shopaholic.

Action and a little Modern romance,
I'll suggest you try Someone to Watch Over Me.

As for more matured romance,
the Wedding, please.

Currently, I'm finishing another book of
Judith Mcnaught and will proceed to another.
Till then, I'll say more.

On the 1st of June, Monday,
I've packed and prepared for Sabah.
Or I'll be grounded from outing on Wed and Fri.

Tuesday, I spend my morning and evening in tuition.
Had my piano and appointment
with my physiotherapist to check on my knee, back, shoulder and neck.
Yes, condition had worsen till knee and back
cause of my posture affected by the ache created by shoulder and neck.

Wednesday, went out.
Celebrated birthday with Joel.
Just for him, we bought platinum ticket at Cineleisure
to watch Terminator Salvation for RM25.
Which was quite a reasonable price.
Considering having a kinda luxury lounge
for resting before heading into the movie hall.
Which apparently provide
Osim (beg ur pardon, it's not Ooi Soo Mei) messaging chair
and internet. The seats are big enough to occupy 2 medium size person.
With the comfort that makes you feel like watching movie on bed.
Sound system was awesome for Terminator.


Booming everywhere like in 3D.
We went Ikea for lunch before that.
After movie, unfortunately we missed the 4.30pm bus because
because the girls were cam whoring
x) Nicola Ashley Soon Yi Jou Ee, know?
So we waited for the next bus till 6.30pm
and went back to Joel's place for a swim.
Ate pizza and Joel Mom's Spaghetti for dinner.
I went home then while they played twister C:

On Thursday, I went for my amali course.
Theoretically, I know how to drive up a slope,
parking and make a 3 point turn now.
and at night I went swimming with my siblings.

Friday, hanged out with Wilson and yadda yadda..
surprisingly I took no pics for this outing ._.
We meet and ate brunch at New York New York Deli
and watched the Brothers Bloom. Which turn out kinda nice~


after that me, Dong, Weng Hou head off for Chem Tuition
while some left and few of them stayed for the AsiaSoft games thing
that were happening outside FCUK.
I wished I coould stay tOO!!

and Saturday, i flew to Sabah
and came back on Friday.

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier

Maybe you're just too busy on your studies preparing for exam.
I know it must be like that.
you didn't forget my birthday.
right?

must be the reason.

nobody cares. I shouldn't care too.

I'm 17 years and 2 days old.
God Bless.
Sorry. Just don't want to talk bout my birthday.

Happy Birthday to Wai Mun, Liyana, Yue Qi, Hui Shan(my long lost twin who's also a swimmer), (the upcoming b'days) Soo Yin, Hooi Shuang and theMostImportant My dad who's b'day is a day before mine which is on the 8th. Happy Birthday to all! God'll bless us all with good health and happiness and more good things to come :D

My mom told me I was my dad's b'day present
from mom during 1992 :B

Happy Mother's Day to all mums in the world!
My mom is the coolest and the cutest and the prettiest.
Wait till you meet her C:

I spent my weekend at Cameron :)
which turns out ok.
We went hiking during Saturday morning.
The hike took us 5 hour
which was less than we expected.
Dad says we're ready for June's Kinabalu
since we've climbed once 2 years ago, this won't be a problem.
We're going to proceed to rock climbing training for this month.

In the afternoon, we went into tea plantation which was really beautiful.

Sunday, we went to cactus and strawberry park before coming back to town.
lil sis' requested ;P
We planned to visit tea factory
but we have to leave before the traffic jam starts.

Well, we spent 2 nights in dad's friends' rented bungalow.
That gives me an idea to stay there if we planned to have a trip!
It's very cheap. RM600 for a night. 4 bed rooms which can fit up to 4 person.
There's a party garden where you can have a not-so-big marquee or have barbecue or camp outside the bungalow. If there's no space left to sleep after occupying the living room which is kinda big too. Astro (all channels) and a table tennis supplied. You'll have a maid and an Aunty for housekeeping and cooking too. Just next to the golf field. RM600 for 10 or 20 person. See my point?

but nope. we didn't stay there. We stayed in a hotel.
Dad and friends always rent that house when they came up during weekend to play golf once a month. Businessmen like to do that. Spending two days playing golf every morning till afternoon, away from wife and kids. Wonder why.

Will upload the pretty pics soon.

My Godfather return home to God's side on Saturday. on My birthday.
A Japanese. Who's a friend and client of my parents before I was even made.
He look at me grow up. He took care of me with his wife when he retired and I went to Japan for home stay in Nov 2007. and I guess I never do anything in return to show appreciation of him feeding me for a month and bringing me to Japanese School. I'm so sorry. I'll never forgive myself.

May you rest in peace..

Papasan, I love you.
and thank you for everything..

it took me a long time..

to realise that it's you that I still love.

I held my breath and clicked onto the "ya". I felt myself shaking. No joke. Result submitted. 42/50 stands out most on the screen. Feeling a little upset, I thank God. I knew I'll be on the line because I didn't study hard for it. Then, something caught my eye..

.. I walked out of the room, GRINNING. Can't help it. CAN'T WAIT. I'm going to drive SOON! HAHAHAHAHA!!!

I proudly announce...
I've passed Undang!


ok la! I'm not so chun like you guys k? who can finish it in 12 minutes and get 49/50 like Li Qi.
Can't blame me..The foreigner beside keep on bothering me. His computer got problem and I start talking to him in all language (which is English and Malay) to tell him to find the guy sitting outside because he's not suppose to talk to me (I can't ignore him right?). That's why! it took me so long to finish. See?! Actually I took some tiny winny time to control my nerves.
By the way..I'm so proud of myself! because I started studying Undang only this morning. (yea, that's why sometimes during exam I don't study too. Dreaming that I'll do good then I'll be proud of myself. When I study, get good results, I don't feel proud. Cos' it's expected. Sounds stupid eh? IT IS stupid ._.)

Not like most parents, mine encourage me to get my P asap. To reduce the burden of our driver having to drive us around all day, each with different activities and tuition for different subject. They're the one impatient sending me to driving since the starting of the year. Apparently, they didn't realise even if I passed Undang and got my L, I'll have to wait till my birthday to go for Amali. Haha ^^ they're so cute.

So.. I'm happy!

Firstly, I finally took the undang test after delaying 2 months. I keep telling myself I don't have time after the 5 hour talk and didn't make time for myself.

Second, 3 weeks ago my driver pick me up from tuition with a white Myvi and.. it's mine! My mom's Naza spoilt and since the car came, she'll drive it first. It suppose to be a surprise present for my birthday this Saturday =D well.. I don't mind. I'll still need around 2 months to really get my hands on the car.

Third, I've finished my second book of Shopaholic.

Confession of a Shopaholic.

Shopaholic takes Manhattan.

Forth, my study mood is here! At last! I've started studying yesterday.

Too bad, I'm going Cameron this Saturday although it's my birthday. To climb Hills and do tracking ar! You think what. Vacation to celebrate ar. Going to climb Mount Kinabalu for the second time during June holiday. Taking longer route this time and doing some rock climbing.

Lastly, watch this vid. I mean listen. I love it so much. It's VERY beautiful.


It brings out the tune of miracle.
When the world finally turns over, the prince and princess finally make their way out of the darkness. and lived happily ever after..

I've talk to your dad
Go pick out a white dress

How beautiful.
No explanation needed. By just saying that, we'll all understand things is finally turning out right.

I was just pathetic

This is going to be long
and bored as hell. Just a note for myself.

Since I think I'm ready to get over this.
I think I'm ready to spill the beans now.

I was really depressed weeks ago.
because I got kicked out of choir. haha!
Somehow, I find it funny now.

I think I should put it in this way instead.
I'm not qualifiy to sing for competition.
To be in the team.
Despite being desperate over the years to sing,
the current me would have went to persuade Gan to put me in.
Instead I happen to believe my voice wasn't good enough.
However, a week after I found the courage to go to consult her.
I asked what makes me not qualified for comp
and I think I actually stared at her in disbelieve
when I heard her words.
She said my voice is too loud for choir.
Okay, that's acceptable.
And she continued, saying that I don't have
expression when I'm singing.
Days later I arrived with the conclusion thinking that
I have nothing to lose not being in the team.
Till then on Friday's Chinese singing comp,
me and Wen won first place for duet.
Yet she was one of the judge
and she actually tell me we sounded nice.




I went home
locked myself in my room
suffocate myself with the pillow
and cried my eyes and heart out.

To be honest,
I confronted Gan for the third time today after being kicked out.
Let me explain, firstly,
I didn't intend to consult her to ask what's wrong with me in the first place.
It just came out wrong from my mouth.
I wanted to tell her I desperately wanted to sing for choir
because I was not given the chance to do so for the past few years
cos' my dad just don't like me singing.
You see, some may say my parents are supportive. Well,
they are during family day cos' it's what they like. Bussssinesss.. know?
When it comes to singing, my dad thinks I'm embarrassing him.
Till I sang in front of his friends during a party
which made him speechless
that now although he didn't support me
at least he didn't discourage me.

God knows,
I'm not even in now even my dad gave me the permission to sing.
As I've said, it came out wrong.
I ended up asking what's wrong.
For my second attempt.
I asked the same question again that she told me I'm expressionless.
Today, which I know it's too late,
I still went to her. This time I told her what I WANT TO SAY.
She said I should have went to her earlier that I'm too late now.
From that moment, I know I am all to blame.
I hate myself for being a coward.
People nowadays always say,
chances are very rare to get,
you have to make one for yourself.
I knew, I just ruin one.

I'm totally over it now.
I've learned from my previous lesson
that there's no point being regret
or feeling bad over something that had been done.
You'll just hurt yourself more not moving on.

You probably don't get what I'm saying here.
As long as I get it that's fine.

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Studies just can't get me distracted.
Books can thou.
I've been reading lately.
and here's 4 books that I would say.
It's nice and I think those who likes romance will like this.





Plus,
watch these. Please. Can't embed.
I'm sorry you have to take this trouble but just go watch these, will you?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjm2i37xSM8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVU4IkzMNIo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4mB94ejivU

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You should have seen me sing on Friday.
You'd be proud of me.
Wen and I was singing our song.
How I wished that you were here for me now
so that I won't walk thru these with God only.
Well, at least I know I have him and he's here for me always.