Saturday, November 29, 2008

Your hair looks like haystack.. But I like it.

Twilight:-
the soft glowing light from the sky when the sun is below the horizon, caused by reflection of the sun's rays from the atmosphere. The period of the evening during which this takes place, between daylight and darkness. A period or state of obscurity, ambiguity or gradual decline.

New Moon:-
the phase of the moon when it first appears as a slender crescent, shortly after its conjunction with the sun, when it is not visible from the earth.

Eclipse:-
an obscuring of the light from one celestial body by the passage of another between it and the observer or between it and its source of illumination.

Do I dazzle you?

Just woke up from nap.
Slept from don't know what time. 2?
I did nothing today.
Morning karate, then cycle to bring a packet of yeast to aunt's house(she wants some). Eat. Shower then sleep. Just meaningless.
How much i wished.. I could just sleep and never wake up.

I felt better today. Always wake up with different moods. It's driving me crazy.

We're going back to my mom's hometown tomorrow, Sekinchan while my dad's flying to Jakarta for business. They have the biggest paddy field there in Selangor. My dad don't have a hometown. Just here larr beause my nenek moyang came to Klang for bijih timah when they first landed in Malaysia.

I have no plan for today. Going out for dinner later.
Maybe next week hang out with Soo Mei and Chiun Wei again to watch Bolt and Madagascar 2.

Are you happy today? :]
미안하다, 사랑한다

Do you remember telling me you're going to skin me alive if I get D or fail for any of my subject? I listened to you and get many A's. You're not proud of me?

Friday, November 28, 2008

You are exactly my brand of heroin

This is going to be an emo post. If you don't like to hear these. Get out off here before I start shouting fuck off. Sorry.

Today was ok and is still ok. It turned out I can't be as happy as i thought I could be today. When today came, I found out that Twilight was all along distracting me from thinking about you. Remember me mentioning about being sad after finishing the 4th Twilight Saga? Now I know why. Because it'll be a hard time again till I can find something that could distract. Tambahan lagi, Twilight the Movie ended today too. All expectations ended today. I couldn't rekindle the lighted splinter anymore no matter how much volume of oxygen I fill the gas jar with. Holiday felt meaningless suddenly somehow. Nobody sees how I cried and screamed in the inside. Nobody sees how much I pretended to be a happy me. How many times have I repeat these lines. Sometimes today, just that second I thought someone heard my faked laughter.

You must think how can one be so hyper yesterday and so down today. Yes, i've been suffering bipolar and I would jump of my from my condo's balcony anytime I want and dare me to do it. But you know what's stopping me? God, our Father, oh Lord. He says it's a sin to not appreciate life and I don't want to go to hell :) I'll go on with life, climbing up that cliff breathing so heavily. But I still believe. Beyond that cliff, I'll see rainbows. I'll see whatever beauty that awaits me there. I'm still struggling yet believing someday.. I'll see that. I will.

These words are mostly nonsense from my brains. I do not wish to ruin anybody's day. So don't read if I'm making you upset with my words.

Yea. Let me quote something from the book at last. Would you be happier? If I'm making a decision and telling you, "it will be as if I never existed". Tell me. What can I do and what do I have(need) to do to make you happy. But if you're going to say this to me. "it will be as if I never existed". I can't do it because you're the last person I'll forget in this world. I mean it and will you say, "if you stay, I don't need heaven." Will you? I don't think so. Not even in my dreams.

Now let me quote something from May's blog.

remember this from the book?
and so the lion fell in love with the lamb.
what a stupid lamb.

what a sick, masochistic lion.

u know that part?
the whole damn cinema laughed when they said it.
wasnt it supposed to be some kind of
"awwwwww my heart just melted" part!?
Yup. I was like what's wrong with these people. Am I in Malaysia?? Wondering why are these people so outdated, why did they missed the book. and then now find the movie awesome.

Well.. and they cut the on-the-bed kissing scene too. You know, I think it's a waste of money to watch it in the cinema but Chiun Wei says it's nice and Soo Mei is happy today altho she complained a lot too after the movie. So I have nothing more to ask for.

Conclusion is, it's a huge expected disappointment for me because movies based on books usually are a piece of shit like Harry Potter but Twilight was okay. Maybe I've expected it to be shit or just some actor actually fits the character. Robert Pattinson looks just perfect at a few angle but he seriously need a comb in the movie and shave in real life.
The glittering part of Edward in the meadow? is disgusting. I imagined him to be shining like an angel. Not glittering like diamonds. I almost LOL. Kristen Stewart? As beautiful and plain as ever and others.. everyone actually fits the character. They cut and edited more than a quarter of the book. Do you know the feeling of 2 movies playing at the same time expecting both to be almost alike, you repeating the lines in your head knowing each word and suddenly someone switch your channel and the line, the scenery changed. How frustrating it could be. Anyway, the movie is nice in its own way. Worth you watching but not in the cinema with the girls giggling ruining the romantic and sweet kinda atmosphere. I did too actually. A little when Edward first shown on the screen. Then I laugh more(quietly) seeing his facial expression like having some pain in the ass. This movie is more like a comedy to me. Seeing the actors on stage acting wrongly makes you laugh isn't it?

Erm, you might want to forget about the book while you're watching the movie. That's what i've been trying to do in the cinema for that past 2 hours. Enjoy and it'll be nice. In its own way. Then read Twilight if you haven't. It's best reading it.

Sorry. I know I talk a lot. Or should I say babble.

Are you happy today? :)
미안하다, 사랑한다

Thursday, November 27, 2008

THE BELL
I KNOW WHO I AM
I am God's child (John 1:12)
I am Christ's friend (John 15:15 )
I am united with the Lord(1 Cor. 6:17 )
I am bought with a price(1 Cor. 6:19-20)
I am a saint (set apart for God). (Eph. 1:1)
I am a personal witness of Christ. (Acts 1:8)
I am the salt & light of the earth ( Matt.5:13-14)
I am a member of the body of Christ(1 Cor 12:27)
I am free forever from condemnation ( Rom. 8: 1-2)
I am a citizen of Heaven. I am significant ( Phil.3:20)
I am free from any charge against me (Rom. 8:31 -34)
I am a minister of reconciliation for God(2 Cor.5:17-21)
I have access to God through the Holy Spirit (Eph. 2:18)
I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realms (Eph. 2:6)
I cannot be separated from the love of God( Rom.8:35-39)
I am established, anointed, sealed by God (2 Cor.1:21-22)
I am assured all things work together for good (Rom. 8: 28)
I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit (John 15:16 )
I may approach God with freedom and confidence (Eph. 3: 12 )
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil. 4:13)
I am the branch of the true vine, a channel of His life (John 15: 1-5)
I am God's temple (1 Cor. 3: 16 ). I am complete in Christ (Col. 2: 10)
I am hidden with Christ in God (Col. 3:3). I have been justified (Romans 5:1)
I am God's co-worker (1 Cor.. 3:9; 2 Cor 6:1). I am God's workmanship(Eph. 2:10 )
I am confident that the good works God has begun in me will be perfected. (Phil 1: 5)
I have been redeemed and forgiven(Col.1:14).I have been adopted as God's child(Eph 1:5)
I belong to God
Do you know
who you are!?

I'm God's child.
why don't you guys copy this and paste it in your blog :]
it's something really beautiful and special that you'll want to share with others ^^

and so the lion fell in love with the lamb..








will you fell in love with chocolate and end up not eating it? ^^

I can feel and taste the joy in the air!!
Cause everyone is so gay and excited that TWILIGHT is out!!!!!!! *SCREAMS*


Conversation with Bro yesterday when he's back.
bold - bro
italic - me

*swinging my twilight ticket in front of his face* I'm watching this Friday! and you're not! xD
so? so what huh? I'm watching this Saturday.

but is Saturday. not Friday. a day later. *shake bum*
at least i get to watch ;P

okay..

Today

Jie!! Ark!!!!!!!!! *running downstairs with his handphone still in his hand*
what? what happen?

2nd!! No!! My friend changed the date! We're watching on the 2nd of Dec!
So sad.. *sad face but laugh out really loud* hahahahaha!

Dear, my beloved

Yesterday's vocal was great!
After 2 class of intro stretching my voice box, testing how high I can sing, I learnt my first song. Caro Mio Ben by Tommaso Giordani. it's difficult. He expect me to sing like Cecilia Bartoli or he's trying to train me into Cecilia Bartoli II which is almost impossible. I'm suppose to sing with ornament! (not your christmas ornament k? music ornament) a classical Soprano and a piece of music in the Baroque period. if you want to know how Caro Mio Ben sounds like, search in Youtube, sung by Cecilia Bartoli. Very beautiful.
Then we continue with 2 pop songs after that classical. I'll Be Home for Christmas and Can't Help Falling in Love in medium high. So my assignment is to train up my voice with this 3 songs and show him what I can do with my voice next week O.o
One more, he expect me to side read when I'm just grade 2 in piano =.=" how am I suppose to do that.

Whee! tomorrow will be the greatest day of my November. Yippee! Can't wait for Paws and Twilight! Hope nothing goes wrong :]

My dad's best friend(bestest friend) passed away in a car accident yesterday. Daddy's very sad. We saw him last Sunday, as healthy as a horse. who knows.. mm. May he rest in peace..
You know.. worst comes to worst. What if you and your best friend were having a cold fight and the next day her family call and inform you she pass away in car accident. No, not my dad and his best friend. I'm just saying what if. Unexpected things happen.

My brother's back from school graduation trip. Syoknya dia. Go to Singapore. My year go to Penang only. Atmosphere in the house was real peace few days ago. Now he can't stop boasting how much fun he had going to Singapore Zoo, Science Centre and Sentosa. Well.. it was quiet. I'm glad he's back :D

Are you happy today? C:
미안하다, 사랑한다

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

a story of forbidden love?

Can you believe it?! I'm going to watch Twilight! O.O
It's not tomorrow but Friday is enough. And..
It's a date with Chiun Wei ^^ Aw.. so sweet. With Soo Mei too xD now that sounds pathetic right? because only 3 of us are going but who cares! Hahahahaha!

By. the. way, Twilight's fifth book is Midnight Sun =____= not the Official Guide. ha.ha.

and look at her, i wonder why was she so angry.

We're so cute, aren't we? I mean, look at everyone. Everyone is so happy. Had a little chat with Sze Yin yesterday. She said she loves this class and had so much fun that she wouldn't want to change class next year. Neither do Car Yi ;] and me. but not for some.
This year ended too soon somehow. We'll be Form 5 next year. Then that's all for our Secondary school life. Life's too short :) Don't waste it and stop wasting time.

Are you happy today? ;D
미안하다, 사랑한다

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

How can I decide what's right When you're clouding up my mind

Decode.

Tagged by Corliss :)

Pass this quiz to 10 people.
1. CarYi
2. KhoyYan
3. PeiNee
4. ShuYee
5. SooYin
6. SzeYin
7. WenYi
8. KarMun
9. May
10. Melanie

Who is no.6 having relationship with?

She's a concentrate-on-studies type.

Is no. 9 a male or a female?
one lady.

If no. 7 and no. 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
haha?

What is no. 2 studying?

Same as me! :D

When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
Yesterday in tuition.

What genre of music does no.8 like?

Pop? R&B? hmm..any idea?

Would you ever woo no. 3?
What's woo nyway?

How about no. 7?
I told you i dono what's woo =_=

Is no.4 single?
Temporary. Am I right? x)

What is the surname of no.5?

Ooi!

What's the hobby of no. 10?
I think..she likes reading.

Does no.5 and no.9 get along well?

2 strangers.

Say something casual about no.1.
she's a nonsense. but she's smaarrt =B

Have you ever tried developing feelings for no.6?

Don't need to. She's nice.

Where does no.9 live?

sorry :/ i dono. TTDI?

What color does no.4 like?
I knew it! it's pink!^^

Are no. 5 and no. 1 best friends?
nope.

Is no. 7 the most talented person in the world?

well..She sings well!

done :]

okay.. can someone tell me whether is Prom night from Hell and The Host nice?

I'm not done yet. I wanna show some appreciation to someone.

Thank You

for working for us for 5 years.

She went home this morning and a new maid came in the afternoon to replace her.
I'll miss her =)

Are you happy today? :p
미안하다, 사랑한다

I dreamt about you again but no wet cheeks this time^^

Monday, November 24, 2008

if i were a boy

Why is everyone so gloomy today?
or am I missing out something big?
Tell me! Tell me!
urgh. I got scolded by some woman today. Shouted.
Can't blame her larr. Maybe that's her way of talking and I shouted at her too in return :D
Forgive her. I'm gonna be an angel.
So how about the others? Monday's blue? Everyone had been replying me with only yes and no today. All smilez :D

Oh! Yesterday I did Christmas clothes shopping. For myself duhh =.=
and i bought a... purple.. erm. I don't know what's it called. Sheer support? Pantyhose? hahaha x) can you imagine a panty with hose with water dashing out. Nvm.
It goes well with mini skirt, shorts and short dress know?
Believe me. Its nice.

So I went Fitness First again in the early evening just now. So far.. I like body jam most :D Body step and body combat quite..mm. what's the word for this. Not very interesting. because all you do is just step step and box box. but body jam is a dance-based workout. A fusion of different kind of dance with latest hitz.

Well.. I haven't say this out loud cause I don't think many read my blog. Anyway, in case some old classmate just happen to come across my blog.

6U's Reunion
Date: 17th of December 2008
Time:


FUCK! COCKROACH! HOLY COOOOOOOOOOOOW!!!
THAT'S WHY I DON'T LIKE TO BLOG SO LATE!!
COCKROACH STARTS CRAWLING OUT!

anyway.. Sorry. Sorry.


Time: 4.30pm
Venue: 1 Utama's Wong Kok Char Chan Teng
Theme: Purple (6 Ungu remember?)

So.. see you there! =D my old friends. with purple clothing.
Gosh. I'm feeling itchy everywhere now. Yuck.

Are you happy today? =3
미안하다, 사랑한다

Enjoy your holiday, love

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Walking hand in hand ..

I dreamt bout you again last night. Or more precise, this morning. And I woke up with tears on my cheek again cause I realised it's a dream. Urgh. What's wrong with me. I'm such a baby. Well.. I'm saying this now cause I know not many people read my blog and those who read my blog is closed enough to me to know that I'm a cow.

Are you happy today? :]
미안하다, 사랑한다

I really hope that I've made a right choice staying.

Friday, November 21, 2008

i don't miss you

complaints!

can Robert Pattinson like.. comb his hair and shave?
He looks more like werewolf here.


Actually. Doesn't matter if he din't.
Looks kinda.. sexy. Yea. Sexay.. aha xD
but when he smiles...


it's different.


Yeah.. look at him! look at him!!!!
lastly.. i still don't think he suits the character.
Edward Cullen is just too perfect :B

Don't go wasting your emotion

Isn't she pretty?
I think she's a she because she's pretty.
If you think she's not. Then you can blame my 2 megapixel camera.
I'm so proud of my self x)

Look at him! How can one guy be soooooo cute and have such a nice voice.
I've got over that Gong Yoo Korean guy. Define David Archuleta. My new obsession ^^

I've been watching Twilight trailer. Again and again.
Because.. I can't wait for the movie! Urg! Today is 21st only! Why is time passing so slowly? But if it's fast then I'll have lesser time to prepare for the Japaneses Exam. Argh.
I can even memorise it.
"you're impossibly fast, and strong.. there gotta be some answers.. What if I'm not a hero. What if I'm the bad guy.. your skin is pale white and ice cold, you don't go out in the sunlight.. Say it out loud, say it.. vampire. Are you afraid of me? No.. This isn't real.. it does in my world.. You don't know how long I've wait for you.. What's goin' on.. An animal. My family.. We're different from others around the time.. You brought a snack.. I rather die than stay away from you.. I'll do whatever it takes to make you save again.. You are my life now."
Gosh. Gosh. Must watch!

Are you happy today? =)
미안하다, 사랑한다

How's your holiday?

Thursday, November 20, 2008

'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away

My Christmas Tree is up! ^^

Are you happy today?:B
미안하다, 사랑한다

The outside world holds no interest for me without you.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

Will Juliet live happily ever after with Paris if Romeo never exist from the start? I guess she will but there'll always be a feeling of emptiness in her heart. I guess.
do you believe in fairy tale? :)
i do.

Are you happy today?^^
미안하다, 사랑한다

Oh. If you're angry with me cos of something that I think you're angry at me for. Then don. I don return you the book to hurt your feelings. You see, getting explanation from you is high on my list of priorities. You know I wanted to read that book more then any besides Twilight saga. Yet I need your explanation more. Not your apology. If that's what you think I want, that used to be what I want but it doesn't apply to my today anymore. Btw, you don't need to explain if you don wan. Leave it then. mm.. and i'll see i can borrow from who. Thx anyway. For thinking about lending me in the first place :]

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

6 months and 8 days

last Wednesday is full moon. Did you notice that?
Sorry. it's been quite awhile i haven't blog. Unusual for me. but you don need to noe why.
It's holiday. well i haven't been doing much cause there's more to do. wateva i'm talking bout.

lets go thru the list again.

things to do during the holiday
  • aerobic classes in Fitness
yes i had been going since starting of November.
  • karate
still attending classes.
  • swimming
still swimming.
  • take up tennis
mom says will hurt my shoulder :(
  • ice skate
not yet. but soon when i'm free. I mean when my family is free. including daddy and mommy. We'll be going to Sunway Lagoon too I think.
  • korean dramas
stopped last week while i make way to finish Twilight saga. ( YESH! FINISHED 4 BOOKS *shake my pom pom, shake my pom pom*) I feel sad cause I finished the book. 5th book coming right? The Official Guide? Twilight the movie tooooooo. Argh..
  • movies (eg. Mamma Mia, HSM 3, Step Up 2, 27 dresses, Madagascar 2)
I've watched Mamma Mia for 3 times, Step Up 2 for twice, August Rush for twice, Meet Dave for Twice and Money Not Enough 2 for once last week till today. Cause I've got nothing better to watch. Drama series! Movies! People! Hand in your movies! I need it! Quantum Of Solace and HSM 3 not out in DVD yet :(
  • 4 saga of Twilight, 6 books of shopaholic, Thanks for the Memories, Msg in a Bottle? , 2 books from Mitch Albom
  • piano
As usual.
  • vocal class
Started last Wednesday. Cheers for me :)
  • master the bread maker
Yes. Baked a bread last week.
  • Chem tuition
  • BM tuition
  • Physic tuition
  • International Japanese Exam on 7th of Dec
Screw it!
  • JSKL fun Biathlon (400m swim + 3km run) on 1th of Nov
  • Chin Woo Biathlon on (800m swim + 7km run) 14th of Dec
  • Terry Fox Charity Run KL 5km on 2nd of Nov
  • miss you everyday
Additional
  • Learning undang-undang for car
  • taking life saving (going for bronze level)
  • taking driving lesson (from daddy)
  • Paws volunteery work on 28th Nov
  • 6U's reunion on 17th Dec
I think that's all. Happy holiday everyone!! :] and Best of luck for the SPM's candidate.

Are you happy today?=>
미안하다, 사랑한다

It breaks my heart seeing you not smiling. Seeing you unhappy. Im used to your coldness. Doesn't shivered with it anymore. I noe why you treat me like that. It's ok. or that's my own excuse for you treating me like that so I can move on with my life everyday not to break down and pause again. Smile to others k? Laugh with others. If you don't feel like smiling to me. I just wanna see you happy.

Friday, November 7, 2008

affection

i can't laugh like that anymore
미안하다, 사랑한다

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

a hug? just a hug can?

I'm really busy recently.
Watching the Korean drama and reading twilight. Need space for studies too.
Episode 11. Cheers :D

Are you happy today?
미안하다, 사랑한다

Stop sucking my soul and creeping back into my thoughts.

Monday, November 3, 2008

to leave or not to leave?

*cockroach crossin slowly*
*screams!!*
*maid came in and caught the cockroach with tissue papers*
*still screamin*
"flush! Cepat masukkan dalam toilet! Tak! Bukan sini! Toilet bawah!"
*still screamin*
7 years old sister, "jie, it's okay."
*sweat=__= screaming stopped*
that's what happen in my room yesterday.

Btw,
Happy Belated Birthday to Hao Min, Kor and Dong.
(Sorry >.< forget to mention on Friday)

Whee~ Exam gonna end soon. Althou i have many plans but i don look forward for holidays to come. Me like school =]

I haven been studying lately. I'm watching the drama I mention last Friday. Episode 8 now. Cheers =D
Yea. Must STUDY!

I have to put my blog to private soon. Before my parents find out. Please gimme your e-mail address.

Are you happy today? :3
미안하다, 사랑한다

Give up everything including you?