battlefield

O Lord hear me as I pray, pay attention to my groaning. Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God for I pray to no one but you. Let all who take refuge in you rejoice, let them sing joyful praises forever. Spread your protection over them, that all who love your name filled with joy. Psalm 5.

Dear diary,

on 12th Aug, Wednesday,

Baby was found over turned with his leg under the big rock which was suppose to be his tanning bed. He was found drowned and I wasn't there to save him. If I've watched over him, I may have pull his leg out. If I was there, he would not be dead by now. Often we think about what IFs when it's too late. I'll miss you and remember you always. So will my family. Darling's been missing you too.. She was swimming back and forth as if she's looking for you. Hope you like the place that I've buried you. Tmn Tun Park is a beautiful place. There's many turtles of the same kind there.

May God bless your poor soul and you lead a better life in heaven.
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I've gotten my P license. I can drive legally now :]
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Can't blog much anymore.
Mom will be keeping the CPU during weekdays.
So I'll be going on9 during weekend only.

All the best in exams people
I'm studying hard too :D

i want you back.

Apparently I've forgotten why I'd been working so hard on everything this year especially on Yellow House.

I went to school yesterday for karate but I end up going into my previous class. Without realising what I was doing, I was checking for table marking searching for memories that I once hung on. It just came to me that everything is literally over except for studies.

Every year when we finish an event, I was happy for the hard work and result but this year all just seem so depressing. Few more months on, we'll be going different path. I don't like to think about it. I do feel excited about college. To start a new life, but it's just sad to leave.

Notes for self:
Shan, promise me.
No matter what happen,
You. must. still. learn. to. move. on.

O Lord, please let these memories of high school etched in my heart forever. Let me remember them.
I took not much picture yet. *Aiks!* :/

By the way,
I'm not going to school tomorrow.
Driving test :D
Wish me luck ;P