I have my sweetest birthday this year

Sweet sixteen. It's true indeed.

Visited Maplesea.com. I really miss maple a lot but I don't have the game now and since there's no more you, it's meaningless to maple.

I found these while reading people's blog. If you're wondering what am I doing these days, I read blogs most of the time. I haven't turn on the radio for a month or read any book after 4 Twilight Saga and 2 book of Darren Shan's latest. I did nothing this month -.- guess i'll be the most stupid one when school reopens. ha.ha.

Who does this looks like? Reminds me of someone xD

Told you not to berlaku curang.


Laugh please.

Are you happy today? ;-]
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Sorry.
and
thank you.
That's all I can say.. I know it's not enough.

不小心当泪滑过嘴角
我用你握过的手抹掉..

Spending New Year's Eve, Coundown without You

This morning, after a swim in Saujana, went back to Damansara school with my bro to check his transferring from Bu2 to Bu4. Saw 胡老师 and my mom chat with her a little while(they were classmates). So mom said want to give her a diary then 老师 started complaining to her saying after my graduation she recieved none from either my bro or sis which is still in Damansara school and complained I didn't bother her, busy modeling for pictures and none of us belanja her during the 6u's Reunion =.=


We went to Bu4 later to get forms and send in his UPSR results. Look at our rules. I didn't know we can tie with purple bands. lols.. and I get a closer, more detail at our class name list. I think 5 Teratai next year will be very noisy >. it's really ridiculous messing up the classes.

Sorry. Actually, you don't need to waste time reading my nonsense. uh.. and please tell me if there's mistake with my Enggrish.

Holiday is going to end soon. I didn't do 3 things. Take life saving and guitar lesson and study. Tell me I'm not the only one who didn't study during holiday :( My mom bought me a secondhand guitar from her friend's son but I told her to return it because I don't like the sound of it(it's an electric guitar larr). The thing is.. my bro then say he got no interest in guitar but drums(the guitar was suppose to be his) so.. bye guitar..

Car Yi said, "Next year is the last year. Treasure the memories" I wish I can :]

I wanna watch Australia and Disney's Bedtime Stories!

Hey, read the orange part in this post.

People out there, if you know anyone who feels like killing somebody or know any murderer, please help me tell them, they can kill me. I'll leave a letter for my parents and police to tell them it's my will.


Maybe I should use more Johnson's Baby Shampoo.

Are you happy today? (=
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help me.. somebody

you're beautiful, it's true

Tagged by Yin and Wenyi :3

Rules & Regulations:*
Do not copy answers*
The tag questions must be 100% the same.
Tag people after doing tag.
No tagging back. :B

I tag ...
1/6 Car
2/7 Pei Neee
3/8 Mel
4/9 Shoe
5/10 Soo Yin

How you know 1?
classmate.

What would you do if you never meet 2?
how would I know. Life would be different of course.

What would you do if 3&4 dated you?
LoReallyL =.="

Do you think 7 is attractive?
Uhuh. She's just too tall for me xD jkjk.

Do you know anything about 8’s family?
Er.. not really. She has a younger sister.

What language does 2 speaks?
Chinese. English. Malay.

Who is 3 going out with?
I don't know.

How old is 4?
sama sama.

When was the last time you talked to 5?
before school holidays.

Who is 6's favourite singer?
~~Xiah~~

Would you date number 7?
what kind of nonsense is this.

What is number 9 last name?
Shu Yee. larr..

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
I thought she's a girl o.O?

Which school does 2 go to?
SMK BUD (4)

p.s Southern China Airline no tv. Missed 14 hours of movies = 6 movies. Ishh!

mm.. he is.

Are you happy today? =>
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i want to be your friend, for FOREVER

I hate love but I can't stop loving.
Why is everyone feeling so depress or is it just me.

I'm back and I miss Malaysia a lot. I mean and the people here.
I'm not holding the camera now so I'll update about the trip some other time.

Firstly, I went back to school today. Rain came pouring down at 4.50p.m., school was empty. Last year's 27 of October was like that too. Cloudy dark sky with rain. School was almost empty too. You don't need to listen to me talk nonsense. Well, to check my class of course. In Teratai. Unexpected. I'm happy yet I'm not. Glad I'm still in the same class with few of my friends but not happy to be different with some. I know, sometimes change may not be a bad thing after all. Once someone told me living in this world means we have to accept changes whether it is good or bad. He's right. Sorry everyone, I'm being long winded again. Forgive me, I just need to talk. I'm afraid to see for what's coming next year. I don't know why. I'm not ready to see you again yet I miss you badly.

So I'm not happy for the TerataiS this year. They retake the exam and it is definitely more difficult. Unfair for them. None of my business actually :/ That's not the part. The streaming was kinda.. messy I think. It doesn't make sense at all. I don't think my result's better than Shoe's and I don't think I reached Mel's standard. Please, I'm not trying to be humble. How the hell I even get into the same class as her. By the way, Shing, it's our 11th year to be classmate and Mel, we're in the same class again after four years :)

Holiday = spend $
(further explanation next post)

Mm.. I was gone for 8 days. Spent 2 and a 1/2 days in Guang Zhou, visit my dad's friend before spending 5 and a 1/2 days in Beijing following tour. If you read Shing's blog, that's the place we went also. Follow tour ma -_-

Guang Zhou, mom's mom's hometown and dad's mom's hometown. Weather's cooling, around 27 to 12 degree celcius. Humidity's sama dengan Malaysia. Food was nice. Malaysia's best still.

Beijing's weather is DRY and cold. Humidity's ZERO and the temperature was around 4 to -8 degree celcius. Cold till so SYOK. We get to see the left over melted snow freeze on the ground but we didn't get to see it snowing :( It was snowing on 21st but I was still in Guang Zhou. Winter had arrive long ago in Beijing but because of the humidity's so low, it snow only once. Food in Beijing tastes like how everyone mentioned. Oily and salty but thanks to our tour guide, she informed the cook everytime before each meal. Fishes there are ikan air tawar not like Malaysia's ikan air masin so the fishes there have lotsa bones. Toilet wasn't like how everyone said. Doorless disgusting toilet. Nope. To welcome Beijing Olympic 2008, they improved a lot. Buildings in Beijing boleh dikatakan setaraf dengan Tokyo (from what I see). Toilet is still dirty but what do you expect from public toilet? Malaysia's public toilet not very clean also. Doors are built for toilets. Mmhmm. I don't need to pee with my naked butt facing outside accept for once.

I do not compare Malaysia with China because both have their good and bad points. Believe me, China's internet is so much faster than Malaysia's. They doesn't celebrate Christmas but they do decorate. Because earth is having weird terrible weather, we experienced turbulence for all 4 flights, from Malaysia to Guang Zhou, Guang Zhou to Beijing, Beijing to Guang Zhou and Guang Zhou to Malaysia. China is so big that distance from Malaysia to Guang Zhou is equivalent to Guang Zhou to Beijng. Both flight took 3 and a 1/2 hours.

8 days in China, I saw only a cat, in Guang Zhou. Dogs, tons. No stray dogs. Dogs in Beijing lives a better life than Malaysian dogs because they're all given clothes to wear and because all citizen are allow to have only one child, they adopt dogs. Furthermore, dogs are allow everywhere for you know why Malaysian dogs aren't. Here's the point. I don't think eating dogs are cruel. You see, Chinese eat dogs. To keep themself warm in winter but they only eat stray dogs. Isn't it better to make use of the stray dogs to keep human warm than leaving them get wacked and infected on the streets? Years ago, when donating organs was introduced, human think it's cruel getting one's organ out disturbing one soul's peace but now what do we think about it.

Are you happy today? c=

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why does my heart still ache
soothe the pain
you might as well
just kill me
I'm so tired of living

no honey for me this time

My throat~~ help @.@
Went to Dr. yesterday. Was having fever. Feeling better today.

Here are the recipes as promised.

Oreo Cheesecake/Cappuccino Cheesecake

Chilled, non-baking Oreo Cheesecake for those who have problem with their oven like me.
Right-click the pic to open in new tab for printing.

For normal cheesecake, use crushed digestive biscuit for based. For Oreo Cheesecake, remember licking out all the cream. Do not use the cream together. For Chilled Oreo Cheesecake, sponge cake for base are optional. Happy Baking! ^^

I'll be leaving M'sia at 8.20 tomorrow morning, so I'll be at airport around 6 something -__- why am I even writing this here.

I know it's early but this may be my last post before Christmas. So..
Have a Merry Christmas everyone!
Enjoy your last bit of Holiday
and Happy New Year!
May God bless you all.

Here's something sentimental.
Time's like accelerating, every year's getting shorter and shorter.
Another year is going to end soon.
I hereby thank you everyone.
Yes. I mean everyone, thank you for being here for me the whole year. Each of you make a difference in my life and I want you all to know that I appreciate you guys.

I sound so.. I dono. Sorry la.

Are you happy today? :]

미안하다, 사랑한다

Don't miss me x)
I'll be back on 28th.

我害怕你心碎没人帮你擦眼泪

I'm coughing 0.0?!
NOOOOOO000000ooooooooooo......I.can't.

Came back from Shu's house to try on her boots. Thought if I could fit in then can borrow from her and wear to Beijing but her leg is so small =__= what was I thinking.
Anyway, after gathering yesterday mommy and I went for a little winter shopping to buy dad's long john, a few pair of wool socks and my boots.

Pause!!
Take a look at this.

hahaha.. my house's capsicum. Malnutrition. So cute.

and I forget about last week's Biathlon. Here's some pics ;-)

Friends on land; competitors in water.

Mommy and I.

Make a guess. 1st or 2nd runner up?

6U Together Again yesterday was just great. Guess everyone felt the same. Everybody was nervous at first. Happy when we met at the end. I'm glad everyone enjoyed themselves. Check out Serena's blog to find out more :B but here I have something everybody doesn't have.

That's the total we spent. Not much le.. about 30 classmates and a teacher came and only.. 8 of us ordered food. Know what, the resit's 42.7cm long. I measured with ruler.

I'm ready for Beijing!

Are you happy today? =D

미안하다, 사랑한다

p.s. I talked as less as possible.
Fu*k blogger. I wrote this post with lesser feeling cause it's a rewrite post. I post it for the first time and only a quarter came out.

let it be..let it be

Busy day.. Exhausted.
I'm not going to talk about the reunion today ;p *blek*
I didn't bring camera so I have to wait for the others to upload the pics on Friendster and Facebook. Quess Mel and others will update about the reunion tomorrow too.

The day before yesterday, I went for a swimmer gathering. Precisely, a retired-swimmers gathering. Swimmers who swam half way and gave up, like me are retired swimmers.
Well, we met at Times Square at 10am and went home about 5 and 6. We were standing outside the cinema discussing what movie to watch for like an hour. Tiring.. Some wanted to watch The Day the Earth Stood Still about some damn alien taking over the world or what, while some wanted to watch Transporter 3 which is 18SG. That's not the problem. I don't think I even look like 18 or 20. At last, we decided to watch -.- Bolt.
After movie, we ate lunch at Gasoline and it took us 2 hours to just talk nonsense, about the old times I mean(I felt so old). Later at 3 something we went Neway for Karaoke! :D

cute ^^

Yesterday was a longer day. I went to cousin's house from 9 to 9. Learn to bake Cappuccino Cheesecake (i'll find a way to put up the recipe for Cappuccino and Oreo Cheesecake) and sausage bun. After lunch we watched 27 dresses and spent the whole afternoon playing Wii Sports. You know, you have to hold the remote shown at the picture below and stand in front of the TV with the sensor. I was the noob laughing there cause it's the first time I see that(i mean not on newspaper or TV). It's friggin' funny looking at the 2 freak moving in front of the screen like some weirdo xD hahahahahahaha...

with a story plot like The Accidental Husband.
James Marsden is soooooooo cuute.

I'm having sorethroat~~ x.X

Are you happy today? 8-]
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It's painful again. Always been.

Opps. Sorry. I forget to reopen my blog permission after doing some changes.


You saw that, didn't you? When did it came into the store?! I was so into Twilight that I almost forget about it. Death's Shadow has 20% rebate for Pop Club members and Wolf Island's the last book when I was buying it in Ikano's Popular last night.

Are you happy today? =]
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I'm bringing scarf to Beijing

Seems like everyone's been blogging much lately :D
Interesting holiday.

I'll show you what I did.

Thursday


I can't believe I cut my fringe. My sis says it's ugly. Bro says me don't like me. Lil sis says I look like a Barbie doll.

Yesterday




I know, my toe nail and finger nail colour doesn't match.. Btw, can you see that snowflakes?? and that mistletoe should be coloured with darker green :(

Are you happy today? :)
미안하다, 사랑한다

See the moon?
It's 7th month.
She said her first word.

all I want for Christmas is you. to be happy

Everything about Christmas is just so very beautiful.
Can't help feeling happy.
Looking at the deco makes me happy.
Hearing the carols makes me happy.
The colours, the singing, the joy! in the air.
Gee.. I love Christmas.
Let's celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ, Our Saviour! :D

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Movies movies on the screen,
they just can't stop playing.

So I've been watching movies again today. Make It Happen, Barbie in a Christmas Carol and Another Cinderella Story. All nice.

Make It Happen, from the same writer of Step Up and Save The Last Dance. Storyline: ok. Dance moves: Just Nice. If you're looking for the best dance moves movies watch Step Up 2. Not this.


Another Cinderella Story, another fairy tale. Another almost Cinderella storyline. About dancing too but more on romance.


I never miss Barbie movies. All Barbie movies are nice. So does this one, Barbie in a Christmas Carol. Meaningful.


I went for medical check up this morning. Just a full blood test k? A full medical check up cost 1000+ You know, I look at the syringe. Looking at my own blood filling up the syringe O.O Horror

More movies to come ^^

Are you happy today? =D
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a girl can dream

I'm going China for 8 days.. not 5 =.= 21st to 28th. 3 days in Guang Zhou to visit My dad's friend and 5 days in Beijing following tour. This is bad.. bad. I'm a home-sweet-home kinda person. Don't know since when. No you for 8 days is just terrible. I am definitely bringing Doggie or I'll drown myself in the sea (pointless: how can I get drown when I can swim). Dad and mom is bringing their laptop but I won't take the risk to log in blogger incase they found out. So I guess I won't be blogging by then.


Yesterday, Me, bro and sis went GSC to watch Wild Child while mom do her shopping. It's.. moderate? Quite nice actually. Worth you wacthing ;) We were suppose to watch 3D Bolt but my cousin says it's not nice and just a waste of money to watch 3D so we're buying the DVD instead -.- It's a headache taking care of the over-grown-size younger brother and a snake-like sister who keep running out of my sight. We have Tea at Kluang Station with mom after the movie around 3 then went to check out the winter clothings in Ou.. and a thunder strike. Precisely, I bumped into my ex in F.O.S. We din't talk much. Our parents do the talking only (they knew each other). Bloody! I haven't been blushing for I don't remember when's the last time I blush. I prayed that none of them notice. That was so.. hot. Seriously, like they turn off the air-cond and something burning inside me. We ate Baskin Robbins after that. It's the forth time in this month. My mom love BR. Do Not Eat Cherry Good Cheesecake. Tastes like medicine. Just so horrible. I regret for not tasting it first.

Hahahahahahha. Free from Japanese at last. Exam and classes is over. No more 日本語.
and.. Nooooooooooooooo!! Dad wants me to consider about retaking the class in school next year! I rather bang my head against the wall.

Are you happy today? ^^
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What've you been doing lately? It drives me crazy.

I want a Volvo too

My toe! is fucking bleeding! Ouch! My toe got stuck under the rolling chair's roller and I have to pull it out. Sounds gross right? Lucky I didn't cut off my toe. I forget to lift up my leg when rolling to another side(away from my comp) =.= well, I'm not stupid. My eyes was stuck on the comp screen too know.

Got lots to say but I'm not straining myself after abusing my own toe.
Tomorrow will be a long post. I guess ;]
Night. Sleep tight and cover blankie tight don't let mosquito bite :/

Are you happy today? <3
미안하다, 사랑한다

It's cold today. Take Care.

insomnia

>___< sleeping problems!

I am doomed.
Bad News:

• I'm turning 17 next year! So fast. So old~~~
• The exam is tomorrow. Just a day left for me to start studying.

Good News:

• After this.... I'm going to re-read the 4 Twilight Saga.

*evil laugh* har har har..

Are you happy today? ;-)
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you can give up on hopes
but remember hopes never give up on you
it's always there waiting for you to turn around
-I should stop talking like a pastor-

distract me

You know why I'm so excited about Penelope. It's because it's another production of Summit Entertainment. Haha x) like Twilight. Still not over it yet and I won't. I'm waiting for the next movie! New Moon! Click here and here, you'll watch a fan made New Moon trailer. Non-readers please don't watch. Combination of this 2 trailer will be a spoiler for New Moon. Uh.. and i wonder how are they going to make Breaking Dawn the movie. You(readers) know what I'm talking about and who'll be the cute and beautiful little R? Aww.. So are they gonna cut the parts too or put it to 18xx? Nobody knows and who cares X) when Breaking Dawn is out we'll be 19 already! Legal to watch it then.

Look at this picture. Not all will understand ;p


So I've watched The Accidental Husband and.. it's sss-weet. Really :D
but Made of Honour is still the best^^


and watched Open Season 2 just now. Open Season is better but if you compare to Madagascar 2.. Mad 2 is still the cutest.



As I've said, I'd watched 5 movies during the first week of school holiday and I didn't talk much about it. Now just let me run over it.. I've got nothing better to do now than talking about movies. So forgive me.

First of all, Step Up 2 was great. Better than Stomp The Yard. S.T.P was bored. You can't compare this movie with Step up because S.U's story line is good while S.U 2's dance moves..just good. Yup =.=


Second, August Rush. This will be bored for you if you doesn't like music. You have to be a music-lover person to enjoy this movie, like me, know? heh xD


Third, Money Not Enough 2 is nice. I don't know what to say about this movie. Watch it and you'll learn something from it :] wait. just one problem. This movie speaks Hokkien. So I watched with the subtitle of course.


Forth, Mamma Mia. Don't need further explaination as everyone knows about it.

At last, Meet Dave. It's hilarious! Watch this if you need a laugh. No, I mean many laughs. You'll laugh your guts out.


Kesimpulannya, here's a watch-this list from me.(so kind of me, right? You're most welcome^^) Go grab these movies and watch if you had nothing to do.

• 21
• Penelope
• Madagascar 2
• New Moon (lend it to me if you have. The Movie~~)
• The Accidental Husband
• Step Up 2
• August Rush
• Meet Dave
• Money Not Enough 2

Are you happy today? 8)
미안하다, 사랑한다

It hurts me more every time you lie.

Know what, don't ever say you got nothing. Don't ever think about killing yourself for that. Because if you do, you're one who doesn't appreciate what you have. Father knows what we need and He always gives us more than enough. So be thankful.
Come on..Smile ^^

unconditionally and irrevocably..

Grilling Honey Chicken for today's dinner =)
Just watch 21 and Penelope.


21 is nice. Nice to see them making out by the window with the curtains open =___="

Penelope is nice too :] Romance. Another fairy tale story. I find it better than Enchanted.

Off I go watch The Accidental Husband now. Will tell you later whether it's nice or not ^^

Are you happy today? :B
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this love bug again ..

Now:

- Shan just came home from The Curve after Body Step class and dinner.
- Shan likes to drink green tea. Cups after cuppa tea.
- Shan likes to read newspaper.
- Shan watches Astro everyday turning into a couch potatoe.
- Shan likes to lie on the bed staring blankly on the blank ceiling.
- Shan likes standing under the shower head for hours.
- Shan haven't start studying for coming Sunday's International Japanese Examination.
- Shan's going to DUMC's Heartbeat Christmas Concert this Friday night.
- Shan's starting her first Undang lesson on the coming Sunday.
- Shan and family spending their first white Christmas in Beijing from 21st Dec to 25 Dec.
- Shan misses school very much.
- Shan misses you too. Badly.

Are you happy today? =3
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you.. don't want me?

I promise that this will be the last time you’ll see me. I won’t come back. I won’t put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I’d never existed.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, pg.71

The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under. I did not resurface.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, pg.84

Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, pg.117

I wished I could feel numb again, but I couldn’t remember how I’d managed it before.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, pg.123

your heartbeats were my lullaby

Went back to my mom's hometown yesterday in the afternoon to attend my mom's cousin's wedding which started at 5. So we came home around 11 at night.
I borrowed my friend from her mother for yesterday and today. Well.. my mom doesn't mind my friend coming over to our house and have a sleepover when my dad's not around. As long as she knows her parents and her parents gave her permission. It's a last minute decision. She followed us home after my training session in the morning so she doesn't have anything with her. She wears mine use mine, everything mine.
We slept around 4 in the morning. We did nothing k? =.= talk about her secrets until 1 in the morning then we both fell asleep. Woke up at 230 again because I can't sleep, having a miniature Edward Cullen in my room sucking my blood. F.y.i, I live in condo so it's unusual to find a mosquito in my room. I think it hid my hair and followed me up the escalator. I end up teaching her add maths and doing her crossword puzzle but we talk more because she just came back from Johor Sports School, it's been month we haven't talk and see each other.
Anyway, today I bring her to Fitness in The Curve. Let her in using my mom's card and head for body attack class. Ate lunch after that we watched Madagascar 2. Then sent her home around 330. Btw, Madagascar 2 is really cute and funny.

A picture of us :]
Singing exercised my cheeks.

and the paddy fields.
While we're driving north back to Sekinchan, we passed by many Sime Darby signs. Bukit Jelutong, Sime Darby Property. Sime Darby Plantation. Sime Darby Adver. Reminds me of Paws, Paws, Paws. Soon enough, all animals in Paws will be put to sleep. Paws will close down when it's time for Sime Darby to take back their land. If they're so rich and owned so many lands, then what do that small land of Paws means to them?

Are you happy today? =)
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Your hair looks like haystack.. But I like it.

Twilight:-
the soft glowing light from the sky when the sun is below the horizon, caused by reflection of the sun's rays from the atmosphere. The period of the evening during which this takes place, between daylight and darkness. A period or state of obscurity, ambiguity or gradual decline.

New Moon:-
the phase of the moon when it first appears as a slender crescent, shortly after its conjunction with the sun, when it is not visible from the earth.

Eclipse:-
an obscuring of the light from one celestial body by the passage of another between it and the observer or between it and its source of illumination.

Do I dazzle you?

Just woke up from nap.
Slept from don't know what time. 2?
I did nothing today.
Morning karate, then cycle to bring a packet of yeast to aunt's house(she wants some). Eat. Shower then sleep. Just meaningless.
How much i wished.. I could just sleep and never wake up.

I felt better today. Always wake up with different moods. It's driving me crazy.

We're going back to my mom's hometown tomorrow, Sekinchan while my dad's flying to Jakarta for business. They have the biggest paddy field there in Selangor. My dad don't have a hometown. Just here larr beause my nenek moyang came to Klang for bijih timah when they first landed in Malaysia.

I have no plan for today. Going out for dinner later.
Maybe next week hang out with Soo Mei and Chiun Wei again to watch Bolt and Madagascar 2.

Are you happy today? :]
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Do you remember telling me you're going to skin me alive if I get D or fail for any of my subject? I listened to you and get many A's. You're not proud of me?

You are exactly my brand of heroin

This is going to be an emo post. If you don't like to hear these. Get out off here before I start shouting fuck off. Sorry.

Today was ok and is still ok. It turned out I can't be as happy as i thought I could be today. When today came, I found out that Twilight was all along distracting me from thinking about you. Remember me mentioning about being sad after finishing the 4th Twilight Saga? Now I know why. Because it'll be a hard time again till I can find something that could distract. Tambahan lagi, Twilight the Movie ended today too. All expectations ended today. I couldn't rekindle the lighted splinter anymore no matter how much volume of oxygen I fill the gas jar with. Holiday felt meaningless suddenly somehow. Nobody sees how I cried and screamed in the inside. Nobody sees how much I pretended to be a happy me. How many times have I repeat these lines. Sometimes today, just that second I thought someone heard my faked laughter.

You must think how can one be so hyper yesterday and so down today. Yes, i've been suffering bipolar and I would jump of my from my condo's balcony anytime I want and dare me to do it. But you know what's stopping me? God, our Father, oh Lord. He says it's a sin to not appreciate life and I don't want to go to hell :) I'll go on with life, climbing up that cliff breathing so heavily. But I still believe. Beyond that cliff, I'll see rainbows. I'll see whatever beauty that awaits me there. I'm still struggling yet believing someday.. I'll see that. I will.

These words are mostly nonsense from my brains. I do not wish to ruin anybody's day. So don't read if I'm making you upset with my words.

Yea. Let me quote something from the book at last. Would you be happier? If I'm making a decision and telling you, "it will be as if I never existed". Tell me. What can I do and what do I have(need) to do to make you happy. But if you're going to say this to me. "it will be as if I never existed". I can't do it because you're the last person I'll forget in this world. I mean it and will you say, "if you stay, I don't need heaven." Will you? I don't think so. Not even in my dreams.

Now let me quote something from May's blog.
remember this from the book?
and so the lion fell in love with the lamb.
what a stupid lamb.
what a sick, masochistic lion.
u know that part? the whole damn cinema laughed when they said it.
wasnt it supposed to be some kind of "awwwwww my heart just melted" part!?
Yup. I was like what's wrong with these people. Am I in Malaysia?? Wondering why are these people so outdated, why did they missed the book. and then now find the movie awesome.

Well.. and they cut the on-the-bed kissing scene too. You know, I think it's a waste of money to watch it in the cinema but Chiun Wei says it's nice and Soo Mei is happy today altho she complained a lot too after the movie. So I have nothing more to ask for.

Conclusion is, it's a huge expected disappointment for me because movies based on books usually are a piece of shit like Harry Potter but Twilight was okay. Maybe I've expected it to be shit or just some actor actually fits the character. Robert Pattinson looks just perfect at a few angle but he seriously need a comb in the movie and shave in real life. The glittering part of Edward in the meadow? is disgusting. I imagined him to be shining like an angel. Not glittering like diamonds. I almost LOL. Kristen Stewart? As beautiful and plain as ever and others.. everyone actually fits the character. They cut and edited more than a quarter of the book. Do you know the feeling of 2 movies playing at the same time expecting both to be almost alike, you repeating the lines in your head knowing each word and suddenly someone switch your channel and the line, the scenery changed. How frustrating it could be. Anyway, the movie is nice in its own way. Worth you watching but not in the cinema with the girls giggling ruining the romantic and sweet kinda atmosphere. I did too actually. A little when Edward first shown on the screen. Then I laugh more(quietly) seeing his facial expression like having some pain in the ass. This movie is more like a comedy to me. Seeing the actors on stage acting wrongly makes you laugh isn't it?

Erm, you might want to forget about the book while you're watching the movie. That's what i've been trying to do in the cinema for that past 2 hours. Enjoy and it'll be nice. In its own way. Then read Twilight if you haven't. It's best reading it.

Sorry. I know I talk a lot. Or should I say babble.

Are you happy today? :)
미안하다, 사랑한다

THE BELL
I KNOW WHO I AM
I am God's child (John 1:12)
I am Christ's friend (John 15:15 )
I am united with the Lord(1 Cor. 6:17 )
I am bought with a price(1 Cor. 6:19-20)
I am a saint (set apart for God). (Eph. 1:1)
I am a personal witness of Christ. (Acts 1:8)
I am the salt & light of the earth ( Matt.5:13-14)
I am a member of the body of Christ(1 Cor 12:27)
I am free forever from condemnation ( Rom. 8: 1-2)
I am a citizen of Heaven. I am significant ( Phil.3:20)
I am free from any charge against me (Rom. 8:31 -34)
I am a minister of reconciliation for God(2 Cor.5:17-21)
I have access to God through the Holy Spirit (Eph. 2:18)
I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realms (Eph. 2:6)
I cannot be separated from the love of God( Rom.8:35-39)
I am established, anointed, sealed by God (2 Cor.1:21-22)
I am assured all things work together for good (Rom. 8: 28)
I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit (John 15:16 )
I may approach God with freedom and confidence (Eph. 3: 12 )
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil. 4:13)
I am the branch of the true vine, a channel of His life (John 15: 1-5)
I am God's temple (1 Cor. 3: 16 ). I am complete in Christ (Col. 2: 10)
I am hidden with Christ in God (Col. 3:3). I have been justified (Romans 5:1)
I am God's co-worker (1 Cor.. 3:9; 2 Cor 6:1). I am God's workmanship(Eph. 2:10 )
I am confident that the good works God has begun in me will be perfected. (Phil 1: 5)

I have been redeemed and forgiven(Col.1:14).I have been adopted as God's child(Eph 1:5)

I belong to God
Do you know
who you are!?

I'm God's child.
why don't you guys copy this and paste it in your blog :]
it's something really beautiful and special that you'll want to share with others ^^

and so the lion fell in love with the lamb..

will you fell in love with chocolate and end up not eating it? ^^

I can feel and taste the joy in the air!!
Cause everyone is so gay and excited that TWILIGHT is out!!!!!!! *SCREAMS*

Conversation with Bro yesterday when he's back.
bold - bro
italic - me

*swinging my twilight ticket in front of his face* I'm watching this Friday! and you're not! xD
so? so what huh? I'm watching this Saturday.

but is Saturday. not Friday. a day later. *shake bum*
at least i get to watch ;P

okay..

Today

Jie!! Ark!!!!!!!!! *running downstairs with his handphone still in his hand*
what? what happen?

2nd!! No!! My friend changed the date! We're watching on the 2nd of Dec!
So sad.. *sad face but laugh out really loud* hahahahaha!

Dear, my beloved

Yesterday's vocal was great!
After 2 class of intro stretching my voice box, testing how high I can sing, I learnt my first song. Caro Mio Ben by Tommaso Giordani. it's difficult. He expect me to sing like Cecilia Bartoli or he's trying to train me into Cecilia Bartoli II which is almost impossible. I'm suppose to sing with ornament! (not your christmas ornament k? music ornament) a classical Soprano and a piece of music in the Baroque period. if you want to know how Caro Mio Ben sounds like, search in Youtube, sung by Cecilia Bartoli. Very beautiful.
Then we continue with 2 pop songs after that classical. I'll Be Home for Christmas and Can't Help Falling in Love in medium high. So my assignment is to train up my voice with this 3 songs and show him what I can do with my voice next week O.o
One more, he expect me to side read when I'm just grade 2 in piano =.=" how am I suppose to do that.

Whee! tomorrow will be the greatest day of my November. Yippee! Can't wait for Paws and Twilight! Hope nothing goes wrong :]

My dad's best friend(bestest friend) passed away in a car accident yesterday. Daddy's very sad. We saw him last Sunday, as healthy as a horse. who knows.. mm. May he rest in peace..
You know.. worst comes to worst. What if you and your best friend were having a cold fight and the next day her family call and inform you she pass away in car accident. No, not my dad and his best friend. I'm just saying what if. Unexpected things happen.

My brother's back from school graduation trip. Syoknya dia. Go to Singapore. My year go to Penang only. Atmosphere in the house was real peace few days ago. Now he can't stop boasting how much fun he had going to Singapore Zoo, Science Centre and Sentosa. Well.. it was quiet. I'm glad he's back :D

Are you happy today? C:
미안하다, 사랑한다

a story of forbidden love?

Can you believe it?! I'm going to watch Twilight! O.O
It's not tomorrow but Friday is enough. And..
It's a date with Chiun Wei ^^ Aw.. so sweet. With Soo Mei too xD now that sounds pathetic right? because only 3 of us are going but who cares! Hahahahaha!

By. the. way, Twilight's fifth book is Midnight Sun =____= not the Official Guide. ha.ha.

and look at her, i wonder why was she so angry.

We're so cute, aren't we? I mean, look at everyone. Everyone is so happy. Had a little chat with Sze Yin yesterday. She said she loves this class and had so much fun that she wouldn't want to change class next year. Neither do Car Yi ;] and me. but not for some.
This year ended too soon somehow. We'll be Form 5 next year. Then that's all for our Secondary school life. Life's too short :) Don't waste it and stop wasting time.

Are you happy today? ;D
미안하다, 사랑한다

How can I decide what's right When you're clouding up my mind

Decode.

Tagged by Corliss :)

Pass this quiz to 10 people.
1. CarYi
2. KhoyYan
3. PeiNee
4. ShuYee
5. SooYin
6. SzeYin
7. WenYi
8. KarMun
9. May
10. Melanie

Who is no.6 having relationship with?
She's a concentrate-on-studies type.

Is no. 9 a male or a female?
one lady.

If no. 7 and no. 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
haha?

What is no. 2 studying?
Same as me! :D

When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
Yesterday in tuition.

What genre of music does no.8 like?
Pop? R&B? hmm..any idea?

Would you ever woo no. 3?
What's woo nyway?

How about no. 7?
I told you i dono what's woo =_=

Is no.4 single?
Temporary. Am I right? x)

What is the surname of no.5?
Ooi!

What's the hobby of no. 10?
I think..she likes reading.

Does no.5 and no.9 get along well?
2 strangers.

Say something casual about no.1.
she's a nonsense. but she's smaarrt =B

Have you ever tried developing feelings for no.6?
Don't need to. She's nice.

Where does no.9 live?
sorry :/ i dono. TTDI?

What color does no.4 like?
I knew it! it's pink!^^

Are no. 5 and no. 1 best friends?
nope.

Is no. 7 the most talented person in the world?
well..She sings well!

done :]

okay.. can someone tell me whether is Prom night from Hell and The Host nice?

I'm not done yet. I wanna show some appreciation to someone.

Thank You
for working for us for 5 years.

She went home this morning and a new maid came in the afternoon to replace her.

I'll miss her =)

Are you happy today? :p
미안하다, 사랑한다

I dreamt about you again but no wet cheeks this time^^

if i were a boy

Why is everyone so gloomy today?
or am I missing out something big?
Tell me! Tell me!
urgh. I got scolded by some woman today. Shouted.
Can't blame her larr. Maybe that's her way of talking and I shouted at her too in return :D
Forgive her. I'm gonna be an angel.
So how about the others? Monday's blue? Everyone had been replying me with only yes and no today. All smilez :D

Oh! Yesterday I did Christmas clothes shopping. For myself duhh =.=
and i bought a... purple.. erm. I don't know what's it called. Sheer support? Pantyhose? hahaha x) can you imagine a panty with hose with water dashing out. Nvm.
It goes well with mini skirt, shorts and short dress know?
Believe me. Its nice.

So I went Fitness First again in the early evening just now. So far.. I like body jam most :D Body step and body combat quite..mm. what's the word for this. Not very interesting. because all you do is just step step and box box. but body jam is a dance-based workout. A fusion of different kind of dance with latest hitz.

Well.. I haven't say this out loud cause I don't think many read my blog. Anyway, in case some old classmate just happen to come across my blog.

6U's Reunion
Date: 17th of December 2008
Time:

FUCK! COCKROACH! HOLY COOOOOOOOOOOOW!!!
THAT'S WHY I DON'T LIKE TO BLOG SO LATE!!
COCKROACH STARTS CRAWLING OUT!

anyway.. Sorry. Sorry.

Time: 4.30pm
Venue: 1 Utama's Wong Kok Char Chan Teng
Theme: Purple (6 Ungu remember?)

So.. see you there! =D my old friends. with purple clothing.
Gosh. I'm feeling itchy everywhere now. Yuck.

Are you happy today? =3
미안하다, 사랑한다

Enjoy your holiday, love