'pray it won't fade away.

I hate it when I go on9.
Can't get my hands off. understand?
Each page lure me into another one.
I'll end up using it for hours.
The more busy I am,
the more interesting is my life,
the more there is for me to update.

It's a crazy July.

First with Malam Bakat then now Hari Koko.

Exams coming! Big movies showing. Layouts to be done.

Money! I've been spending over thousands!
okay. I don't mean to sound big-headed.
Just that I feel so guilty digging money from my mom all the time.
First to pay for the Jackson's dance costume.
Then layout.
They insist on paying for 2 advertisement, to advertise for my scuba instructor and PAWS rather than advertising for their own company or help me find sponsor. Now there's MORE money needed to pay teacher's for notes. For my tuition fees. For my driving lesson. For our graduation day and robe. For the JULY BABIES. Why do people like making love so much in September -_- it's like 20 of them! Yeaya I'm exaggerating but it's really more than 10 presents to buy aight? Including my mom's. Gosh! Headache! It's not my money which makes me feel worst to get it from my parents. I want to say thanks a MILLION to my daddy and mommy. I owe them a lot lot and lots. Nevertheless I was still arguing with them over not allowing me to get involves in activities and hanging out again when they are just trying to reason with me because I score 53 for purata and gotten last in class.

Reminder for myself.
Shan, please grow up to be a wiser person and don't upset or disappoint your parents anymore! For God's sake! No point feeling bad but not doing anything about it. It's time to get serious. You need a bright future to repay them.

O Lord, help me.