WHY HELLO THERE :D

just passing by to get something.

not coming back here anymore.

may get a link.

later?

or mayb not.

GODAMNIT. i don't like this.

i know.. i love these memories.
but it's PAIN.FULL.


can't blog whenever i see those older post.
make me so emooo.
so now what?

Make a new blog.
I shall put all these aside when this chapter ends.

Gotta' do it :(

it's ending again.

.up grown I've

.anymore cry don't I.

.end the in me leave to going is everyone that understand I


SPM tmr. Give ur best.



means it's starting soon.

sorry seems to be the hardest word

I was looking forward to go to college.
Now great, i won't be in for January intake anymore.

Seriously, I'm beginning to think I'll prefer hectic life style.

Forgive me O Lord, for not being grateful always.
Well, it's a blessing to wake up alive every morning.

I'm filling myself with different fantasy and stories..whatever cultures and life in different centuries lately. Just to runaway for a while. Been reading lotsa novels and catching up drama series. Shown on tv. heh xD of course I make time for studies too.

Watch that Hong Kong drama series showing on 8tv 7pm.
Glittering Days (Dong Fang Zhi Zhu~)
It's nice :]
They have very beautiful voices.



Melts heart.
Me likey very much.
and me think the beat for this sounds nicer. Duet with Blue.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GvbQzRAi4wM
sorry. "Embedding disabled by request"

or will you prefer this?
with Kenny G.

battlefield

O Lord hear me as I pray, pay attention to my groaning. Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God for I pray to no one but you. Let all who take refuge in you rejoice, let them sing joyful praises forever. Spread your protection over them, that all who love your name filled with joy. Psalm 5.

Dear diary,

on 12th Aug, Wednesday,

Baby was found over turned with his leg under the big rock which was suppose to be his tanning bed. He was found drowned and I wasn't there to save him. If I've watched over him, I may have pull his leg out. If I was there, he would not be dead by now. Often we think about what IFs when it's too late. I'll miss you and remember you always. So will my family. Darling's been missing you too.. She was swimming back and forth as if she's looking for you. Hope you like the place that I've buried you. Tmn Tun Park is a beautiful place. There's many turtles of the same kind there.

May God bless your poor soul and you lead a better life in heaven.
____________________

I've gotten my P license. I can drive legally now :]
____________________

Can't blog much anymore.
Mom will be keeping the CPU during weekdays.
So I'll be going on9 during weekend only.

All the best in exams people
I'm studying hard too :D

i want you back.

Apparently I've forgotten why I'd been working so hard on everything this year especially on Yellow House.

I went to school yesterday for karate but I end up going into my previous class. Without realising what I was doing, I was checking for table marking searching for memories that I once hung on. It just came to me that everything is literally over except for studies.

Every year when we finish an event, I was happy for the hard work and result but this year all just seem so depressing. Few more months on, we'll be going different path. I don't like to think about it. I do feel excited about college. To start a new life, but it's just sad to leave.

Notes for self:
Shan, promise me.
No matter what happen,
You. must. still. learn. to. move. on.

O Lord, please let these memories of high school etched in my heart forever. Let me remember them.
I took not much picture yet. *Aiks!* :/

By the way,
I'm not going to school tomorrow.
Driving test :D
Wish me luck ;P

I wanna hold your hand

Today I'll talk about this movie.


A movie that you'll never get what's the story is about
but crying every time you watch it again.
No, I never experience it before.
and it's a very weird feeling that I can't explain.
Guess the story is about love life during war period.

Now, you see..
it's a story that keeps you asking question
struggling to find out why this what that
hoping that at the end of the story they'll explain.
I don't understand what's the story trying to tell
but you'll feel really depressed,
because of the story.

You'll be thinking "right."
well, I'm sorry I'm not a person
who's good in putting things into words.
Let alone this movie.

The first time I watch it, I hate it
cause it's so freaking depressing and bored
cause you don't understand the movie
but you can't stop the movie half way
and wish to finish that movie.

Okay. I'm being long-winded
repeating words
but that's my point.
It's a movie worth watching.

No wonder those songs have been playing in my head but I can't figure out where I heard it from. Now somebody told me and I'll give, "Oh God, that movie! Yes, it's the song I heard!" kind of response.

Here's some songs with the scenes from the movie.
You probably know most of it.



It feels alright now
Hold me tight
Tell me I'm the only one
And then I might
Never be the lonely one

So hold me tight
tonight, tonight
it's you,
you, you ,you, oo

Hold me tight
Let me go on loving you
Tonight, tonight
Making love to only you

So hold me tight
tonight, tonight
it's you,
you, you ,you, oo

Don't know what it means to hold you tight
Being here alone tonight with you

It feels alright now
Hold me tight
Tell me I'm the only one
And then I might
Never be the lonely one

So hold me tight
tonight, tonight
it's you,
you, you ,you, oo

Hold me tight
Let me go on loving you
Tonight, tonight
Making love to only you

So hold me tight
tonight, tonight
it's you,
you, you ,you, oo
you, oo



Close your eyes and i'll kiss you
Tomorrow i'll miss you
Remember i'll always be true
And then while i'm away
I'll write home everyday
And i'll send all my loving to you

I'll pretend that i'm kissing
The lips i am missing
And hope that my dreams will come true

And then while i'm away
I'll write home everyday
And i'll send all my loving to you

All my loving i will send to you
All my loving, darling, i'll be true

Close your eyes and i'll kiss you...



yeah i tell you something
i think you'll understand
when i say that something
i wanna hold your hand

i wanna hold your hand (x2)

oh please say to me
you'll let me be your man
and please say to me
you'll let me hold your hand

now let me hold your hand
i wanna hold your hand

and when i touch you i feel happy inside
it's such a feeling that my love, i can't hide
i can't hide (x2)

yeah you
you got that something
i think you'll understand
when i feel that something
i wanna hold your hand

i wanna hold your hand (x3)





Hey Jude, don't make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.

Hey Jude, don't be afraid.
You were made to go out and get her.
The minute you let her under your skin,
Then you begin to make it better.

And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain,
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders.
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder.

Hey Jude, don't let me down.
You have found her, now go and get her.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.

So let it out and let it in, hey Jude, begin,
You're waiting for someone to perform with.
And don't you know that it's just you, hey Jude, you'll do,
The movement you need is on your shoulder.

Hey Jude, don't make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her under your skin,
Then you'll begin to make it
Better better better better better better, oh.

Na na na, na na na na, na na na, hey Jude...





When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

I don't like the movie
but I've watched again and again.
Well, Nat loves the movie.
So does Shereen, if I'm not mistaken.
It's up to you to decide C:

sucker. don't ignore me.

you know how it's feels like
when I look into your eyes.

close your eyes and I'll kiss you

well, few weeks ago when I saw her pictures and name all over the newspaper, I don't think she's hot. Eventually, after watching the movie, I think I agreed with everyone now.


Mind me, I don't think she look hot
but it's that she has character
that's what make her hot.
Nevermind if you don't understand.
She has beautiful eyes :)


Right, I know I'm late but at least I got the chance to watch Transformer in cinema before the fever is over. (it's a must to watch action movie in cinema) Believe me, the hall for Transformer was kinda full yesterday despite the movie was out a month ago. *nod nod* mmhmm! and the movie's awesome. Still rate it as the best action movie ever besides Terminator (for me) although the storyline was kinda suckish this time :/


Just so I know, Megan Fox is 23 this year and so does Shia LaBeouf (read as "SHY-uh luh-BUFF") but apparently she looks older always. Maybe cause Sam still has his boyish-look. *one- shoulder shrug* He's kinda cute in the movie thou..



By the way, Tom Felton is 22 years old :D

Tom Felton
...and girlfriend T.T
Jade Olivia

Jun Yen said, " Tom Riddle is hotter!"




Obviously not, right?!!

the Sweetest Surprise

I'm speechless about Harry Potter.
It just keep disappointing me.
Can't they just have that movie long
like Lord of the Rings? 4 hours?
or make it 2 parts like Red Cliff?
but overall rated.. ok la C:
Now,
you'll tell me what you think bout it after you watch it.

Now I know Hermione has brown eyes,
Ron green eyes and Harry gray eyes.
why do they all have such beautiful eyes <3

but I can't get my eyes off of him!


Not him,
Tom Felton aka Draco Malfoy actually.

He's so hot!!

He's so good to look at!
Can't they just give him a bigger part to act?!

'pray it won't fade away.

I hate it when I go on9.
Can't get my hands off. understand?
Each page lure me into another one.
I'll end up using it for hours.
The more busy I am,
the more interesting is my life,
the more there is for me to update.

It's a crazy July.

First with Malam Bakat then now Hari Koko.

Exams coming! Big movies showing. Layouts to be done.

Money! I've been spending over thousands!
okay. I don't mean to sound big-headed.
Just that I feel so guilty digging money from my mom all the time.
First to pay for the Jackson's dance costume.
Then layout.
They insist on paying for 2 advertisement, to advertise for my scuba instructor and PAWS rather than advertising for their own company or help me find sponsor. Now there's MORE money needed to pay teacher's for notes. For my tuition fees. For my driving lesson. For our graduation day and robe. For the JULY BABIES. Why do people like making love so much in September -_- it's like 20 of them! Yeaya I'm exaggerating but it's really more than 10 presents to buy aight? Including my mom's. Gosh! Headache! It's not my money which makes me feel worst to get it from my parents. I want to say thanks a MILLION to my daddy and mommy. I owe them a lot lot and lots. Nevertheless I was still arguing with them over not allowing me to get involves in activities and hanging out again when they are just trying to reason with me because I score 53 for purata and gotten last in class.

Reminder for myself.
Shan, please grow up to be a wiser person and don't upset or disappoint your parents anymore! For God's sake! No point feeling bad but not doing anything about it. It's time to get serious. You need a bright future to repay them.

O Lord, help me.

you are not alone

falling.
in love?

don't let me fall . Lenka

read.
I love her English.

and the reason is you

beautiful!

I'll be there

You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you, I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you, I'm so glad that I found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and I'll be there

If you should ever find someone new, I know he'd better be good to you
'Cause if he doesn't, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there

(Just look over your shoulders, honey - oo)

I'll be there, I'll be there, whenever you need me, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah

I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there...


My favorite. among all his songs.



I went home.
Watched news.
Listened to radio.
and I just can't hold back the tears anymore.

I used to love him.
and I still adore him.
He was beautiful.
and I love his eyes.
although it's just brown.



but then he decided to change himself.
I was disappointed with him.
Guess you guys was too right.
but then I see that he can still beautiful.

in some other way.

I'll always remember him.
May he rest in peace and Father to bless his soul.

think of me

this was meant to be yours, darling.

the winner takes it all

If I'm not mistaken, that was my first experience on the beach.
Port Dickson.

that's my daddy ^-^
Happy Father's Day Daddy!
and all Daddy in the world!
We shared money bought 2 presents and made a scrap book with a picture in the middle.

Done by Pei Nee. Credits go to her C:
(i don't have photoshop=.=)

okay.. looks good eh? Done by Sony. Sounds good eh?
Sorry to break your bubbles but this movie sucks.
The movie is as long as an hour and half only
and I don't think there's a story line
but the action and killing is passable.
Alright, that's her signature pose. I like it too.
By the way, She's the "sexy/hot" Jun Ji-hyun.
Mmhmm.. she's a korean. Weird huh?
Using a korean star for an Japanese anime.

Don't Speak

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
Don't speak,
Don't speak,
Oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
Don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

Gwen Stefani