love remains the same

Too much to write.

Have not blog lately cos I was in real depressed mood =.= Later write something too scary.
and no I haven't been doing homework recently despite having so much homework, I've been day dreaming. I don't know why. So I should be catching up on homework now instead of blogging here.

I ate a lot too. Growing fatter >. Gastric phobia already because the pain really sucks out my guts. What crap am I crapping anyway.

Well, I had my first guitar lesson last week. My 2nd tomorrow. Somehow.. I find piano easier. Chords are easier to remember for piano. Maybe cos I'm a newbies but i have my first class of piano like I've been taking it all this while O.o

Annual General Meeting was cool, with teachers appointing AJKs not us electing.

Few days ago - intruder - in my room. So of course I slept in my sis' room instead. What else, Cock roach. I Got Cock Phobia.

The main objective of me blogging today is to wish everyone

Happy Chinese New Year!
and enjoy your holiday :]

because I won't be around from the first to the fifth day of CNY. So this may be my last post before CNY. I'm going to visit my second wonder of the world. Candi of Borobudur in Jogjakarta.
Geehee =B I'll have a make over for my blog page before I go.

Another story to tell..you can skip this part.
It was last week when I pass by 5 xx and she was decorating for CNY during recess. She said something that I've been wanting to say. "it's our last year ma. So have to do everything nicely lo" We can see that because it's our last year we are wrong to think that it's alright to leave the class dirty, boards empty and drop the sports just to concentrate on studies. We should concentrate on SPM but that doesn't mean everything. It does determine our future but don't forget we can be 17 and Form 5 only once in our life. So we should do our best in everything and live to the max which is balanced. Let's decorate our class board nicely, keeping the class clean always and play your sports well for free for this one last time in school :)

check yes juliet - We the Kings

Are you happy today?
I miss you.

I'm falling for somebody.
It's so not the right time.
Besides, one is enough.

Hansemnya.

You were my shelter home
but this home no longer welcome me
but this home had locked me up without realizing it
but this home forget to let me out before closing up
thus my space is limited
thus free me
thus let me fly
and return to be your friends for forever
I know we both deserve a better life

I'm very tired.
Enough is enough.

eight month and one day.
Today is full moon.

Here I am - Leona Lewis

music is well said to be the speech of angels

by Thomas Carlye and Kam Pui Shan.

Came home from Ikano's Euphony Musical. I was doing some registration. Make a guess. What is it this time >_I wasn't suppose to say this out but I'm too excited about it (you know I can't keep my mouth shut). I've planned to tell people only after a month of lesson but here am I now telling everyone. hehe.. At last I persuaded her to allow me to go for the class *evil laugh* harharharharhar!

It's RM113 per month, half and hour, once a week but the payment is RM339 for one term which is 3 month.
Well, the price is reasonable for me. My piano lesson at home for half an hour is around RM180 per month. My vocal class was 100++ per lesson! What do you expect? A professional coming up to your house from Seremban to give you an hour of private lesson. It's crazy mann! My mom say having vocal class is pointless which I totally disagree. So I took the class for a month only during the holiday :/ Well, it's enough I think..not like I'm going to sing in Malaysian Idol or what.

P.s. He's incredible. My vocal teacher larr (he's a church choir teacher) . He plays piano better than my piano teacher.

You see.. I don't mind spending my Wednesday and Thursday afternoon for vocal and piano and Friday night for this!

Not going out tonight. Ordering pizza for dinner. My mom and dad are going out for Chinese Opera. You know, the free chinese opera which you have people crying and 2 white lanterns hanging by the gate side? My parents call it chinese opera =,=

If you still don't get what am I heading for.. stop guessing and forget about it. I'm not telling. Harhar! give you a clue. It's a musical instrument.

Are you happy today? =D

미안하다, 사랑한다

prosperity burger

It was my first time eating it last year and also my last.

Damn. I was suffering gastric in school again today.
Actually, I'm a goodie know. I don't go against rules ok. I'm forced to eat in class because my breakfast time, 6.15a.m to 10.35a.m recess time is too far apart, for me. My mom suggest me to take rice for breakfast.

Lols.. my brother says he got Pn. Moganam for Sej and she's evil x) and only just now he told me Shinobi sent out flyers to them a few days before. No wonder so many people larr >_ Urgh! He should have told me earlier. Why did I not think about doing so.

Hey, had you guys seen The Tropicana City mall yet? It's somewhere outside my house and every night when I pass by there it looks like the Olympic cube in Beijing. Can change colour! Gee.. So nice!

I talk crap most of the time =_= can't blame others for not listening.

Mel was doing quizzes again. So I can't help but doing it again.

You Are Copper

You are provocative and challenging. You help people realize who they really are. You live a very balanced life. You always take time for love and art. You are both a powerful and generous person. You always have time to give back. People find you to be incredibly ethical and loyal.

What Metal Are You?

Your Word is "Love"

You see life as possibility to form deep connections with a few people. Relationships are the center of your world, and you always take time to bond with those you love. You are caring and giving. You enjoy helping those you love. And when it comes to romantic love, you feel passionately ... even in a very long term relationship.

What's Your Word?

Are you happy today? ^_^

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Day 3 (23rd of Dec)

flew to Beijing and slept in hotel.

Day 4 and 5 (24th and 25th of Dec)

TianAnMen Square
Daddy's communist hat nice eh? When you're cold, you wouldn't give a damn about fashion anymore. We grab whatever that was selling there just to cover up.

I like the bald trees. It's sexy.

the Forbidden City
This pot thing, they use it to terrify the country people. When king speaks, they'll burn something to give out white smokes so that the king will look like god.

Garden during winter.


the Great Wall of China
Tour is nice ^o^ you won't be surrounded by aliens only. At least there's Malaysian and somebody who understands your joke or speak your language.

Scary..

Here. The melted snow, freezed ice.

Skiing at some place
Believe it. It's me.

Told you. Btw, it's artificial snow. and it's fun!

I'm a stupid girl

who needs guidance all the time.

Just came home from shopping for CNY clothes. Was suppose to do it tomorrow night after tuition but since me and mom went to the Curve to have dinner with her friends after my piano and physio in the afternoon, we might as well do it.

School's great. I don't know what to say. Lots of homework. However, I just love school so much for no reason.

My backache is crazy and my gastric is coming back. And now doctor said something about my lungs after my medical check up during the holiday.
Problematic heh? Haha x) I am going to die soon.

p.s. My mom send text messages to me when we're at home in different room =.="

Are you happy today? :D
미안하다, 사랑한다

we WERE the 4 happiest friend in the world.

the ultimate and superb ones.

Jen Yin - the nonsense
Pui Shan - the more nonsense
Farm - the much more nonsense
Yu Xin - the most nonsense

We laughed like there's no end. Altho it's just a short one year. They'll be my bestest friend forever no matter what happen. I missed those time.. and for a few thing I'm sure about. I love them as much as I love myself and I'll never ever forget them.

What to do? What to do?

I mean
what can I do?
and what can't I do?
Tell me.

Aw.. Shing!! I still can't believe it!! Our 11th year! God blessed us :D

A good actress.

Don't ask me why I didn't sit with her
b'cos I was and am asking myself the same question too.

I'm glad we're back to school. I love school ^^
New Year = New Class = New Friends
It's not that bad after all :]
Everybody's nice =.= (who wasn't nice the last few years). but I find last year's class funier as in more fun :) nvm. It means we'll be able to concentrate on studies.
I'm totally worn out now and most probably will fall asleep in tuition later. I was sleeping and waking and sleeping and waking last night -___- to see whether is it time for school or not. Too excited and terrified. Unfortunately I'm not early enough >. Ish! The place I wanted is taken! *sigh*

Today is my bro's first day in BU4. He came home telling me our assembly in the morning is like funeral. With song playing but everyone quiet standing still x) I remember i used to think like that too when I first came to BU4.

* Finished my 5th hour of undang lesson yesterday morning. Next.. I'll be taking theory exams 0.o! I saw Rachel Lai and Miyumi but they don't recognise me. Went back to Sekinchan after that to attend mom's cousin wedding.
* Saturday night was crazy. My dad's friend had his B'day party at a bar. He booked the whole bar of course. We play pool, darts, table tennis.. sing karaoke, eat, drink beer, smoke .. Eww. We smell like smoke when we got home. and I saw my first guy. The first guy I date and I know besides my dad. He's my dad's friend's son. So awkwardly, we look at each other and none of us said a word.

Are you happy today? :3
미안하다, 사랑한다

I'm afraid.
I dare not give it to you.
I'm afraid of you getting angry again.
I'm afraid you'll return it to me.
I'm afraid I'll hurt myself again.
Wait till I shut down my pain receptors.

First 2 days in China (21st and 22nd of Dec)
Guang Zhou

Sun Yat Sen's Memorial hall.
At there I was told that he was mistaken by M'sians. He's actually not a part of the communist. Read China's history and you'll understand. He was the guy who overthrew the Qing Dynasty and become the first president of China.

Sorry la. My hand is not made for modeling.
It's written there, "the country belongs to all people, the government is managed by all people, and the national benefits are shared by all people." but without the definition at the bottom, it'll be mistaken as 整个天下都是阿公的。Means this world belongs to him which explain that he's a communist. Just a joke. Hah. Not funny.

Here's the place that we did shopping before going to Beijing. Where I bought my boots. My shoe can't keep me warm enough. Besides, I can't fit in the leather boots I bought in Malaysia after putting on the thick wool socks.

On the 2nd day, we went to Bai Yun Shan.

Then, we went to the place where people sell abalones, shark fins, dry scallops, etc.
Mom loves dry scallops. See that? Imaging how many sharks are killed.

Visit to Guang Zhou was just a rest and trial for us to get use of the cold temperature before heading to Beijing. Dad says we'll get sick flying to a place which has 40 degree celcius different from Malaysia.

I'm a Bitch

Call me a bitch.
Call me a jerk.
Call me any names.
Scold me.
Slap me on my face.
I don't care how you treat me.

Just talk to me. Please..

I know I'm stupid.

Hi..

Despair?
Avert not thy eyes.


I've been watching Trinity Blood lately. My third vampire story. I used to hate vampire stories, used to think it's nonsense. My first vampire story was Darren Shan, then Twilight Saga. I always think Japanese are perverts. They draw women with really big boobs but I can't resist the guys in anime =.=

Here's Father Abel Nightroad aka Nanomachine Crusnik 02.
He's a vampire who feeds on vampire's blood. A Crusnik. He's an AX agent which is a part of the Vatican. He's the most beautiful in his human form and the sexiest in his Crusnik form x)
Arg.. no need to explain so much la. Interested then watch la.

Today morning, i went back to school with my bro for the orientation. He's in 1 Anggerik. What to expect. He get 4 A's but this year's streaming is real weird especially the form 1s. I heard they say SK students are placed at the front class while some say there's 5 A's students in Mata and 7 A's students in Anggerik. I heard ok? Don't know it's true or not.
Saw Qian Wen and her sis' there for the orientation too. She's as tall as me. Haiz.. my bro form 1 also taller then me already.

Came home around 11 and have my piano at 11.30a.m. Then watch Trinity Blood after lunch. Lols..

Today's already 2nd day of 2009 yet I still have 2008's stuff left out. Will update about the 8 days trip in China. For a starter, it's kinda fun in Guang Zhou. Usaully in M'sia I speak Guang Dong some doesn't understand and some doesn't speak fluently but at there it somehow feels like.. I fit in. hahax.. Everybody speaks my language. My first language was Guang Dong when I was living with my granny. But you can hear foul language everywhere -__- not much la. My dad say when he was there years ago, when he's talking to the cab driver, out of his 12 words there'll be 7 bad words xD cao hai! tiu!.. My bro and I were like.. wth.

Are you happy today? 8)
미안하다, 사랑한다

Happy New Year

Remember to start putting on your rear seat belts :)

amnesia and bronchitis?

I have my sweetest birthday this year

Sweet sixteen. It's true indeed.

Visited Maplesea.com. I really miss maple a lot but I don't have the game now and since there's no more you, it's meaningless to maple.

I found these while reading people's blog. If you're wondering what am I doing these days, I read blogs most of the time. I haven't turn on the radio for a month or read any book after 4 Twilight Saga and 2 book of Darren Shan's latest. I did nothing this month -.- guess i'll be the most stupid one when school reopens. ha.ha.

Who does this looks like? Reminds me of someone xD

Told you not to berlaku curang.


Laugh please.

Are you happy today? ;-]
미안하다, 사랑한다

Sorry.
and
thank you.
That's all I can say.. I know it's not enough.

不小心当泪滑过嘴角
我用你握过的手抹掉..

Spending New Year's Eve, Coundown without You

This morning, after a swim in Saujana, went back to Damansara school with my bro to check his transferring from Bu2 to Bu4. Saw 胡老师 and my mom chat with her a little while(they were classmates). So mom said want to give her a diary then 老师 started complaining to her saying after my graduation she recieved none from either my bro or sis which is still in Damansara school and complained I didn't bother her, busy modeling for pictures and none of us belanja her during the 6u's Reunion =.=


We went to Bu4 later to get forms and send in his UPSR results. Look at our rules. I didn't know we can tie with purple bands. lols.. and I get a closer, more detail at our class name list. I think 5 Teratai next year will be very noisy >. it's really ridiculous messing up the classes.

Sorry. Actually, you don't need to waste time reading my nonsense. uh.. and please tell me if there's mistake with my Enggrish.

Holiday is going to end soon. I didn't do 3 things. Take life saving and guitar lesson and study. Tell me I'm not the only one who didn't study during holiday :( My mom bought me a secondhand guitar from her friend's son but I told her to return it because I don't like the sound of it(it's an electric guitar larr). The thing is.. my bro then say he got no interest in guitar but drums(the guitar was suppose to be his) so.. bye guitar..

Car Yi said, "Next year is the last year. Treasure the memories" I wish I can :]

I wanna watch Australia and Disney's Bedtime Stories!

Hey, read the orange part in this post.

People out there, if you know anyone who feels like killing somebody or know any murderer, please help me tell them, they can kill me. I'll leave a letter for my parents and police to tell them it's my will.


Maybe I should use more Johnson's Baby Shampoo.

Are you happy today? (=
미안하다, 사랑한다

help me.. somebody

you're beautiful, it's true

Tagged by Yin and Wenyi :3

Rules & Regulations:*
Do not copy answers*
The tag questions must be 100% the same.
Tag people after doing tag.
No tagging back. :B

I tag ...
1/6 Car
2/7 Pei Neee
3/8 Mel
4/9 Shoe
5/10 Soo Yin

How you know 1?
classmate.

What would you do if you never meet 2?
how would I know. Life would be different of course.

What would you do if 3&4 dated you?
LoReallyL =.="

Do you think 7 is attractive?
Uhuh. She's just too tall for me xD jkjk.

Do you know anything about 8’s family?
Er.. not really. She has a younger sister.

What language does 2 speaks?
Chinese. English. Malay.

Who is 3 going out with?
I don't know.

How old is 4?
sama sama.

When was the last time you talked to 5?
before school holidays.

Who is 6's favourite singer?
~~Xiah~~

Would you date number 7?
what kind of nonsense is this.

What is number 9 last name?
Shu Yee. larr..

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
I thought she's a girl o.O?

Which school does 2 go to?
SMK BUD (4)

p.s Southern China Airline no tv. Missed 14 hours of movies = 6 movies. Ishh!

mm.. he is.

Are you happy today? =>
미안하다, 사랑한다

i want to be your friend, for FOREVER

I hate love but I can't stop loving.
Why is everyone feeling so depress or is it just me.

I'm back and I miss Malaysia a lot. I mean and the people here.
I'm not holding the camera now so I'll update about the trip some other time.

Firstly, I went back to school today. Rain came pouring down at 4.50p.m., school was empty. Last year's 27 of October was like that too. Cloudy dark sky with rain. School was almost empty too. You don't need to listen to me talk nonsense. Well, to check my class of course. In Teratai. Unexpected. I'm happy yet I'm not. Glad I'm still in the same class with few of my friends but not happy to be different with some. I know, sometimes change may not be a bad thing after all. Once someone told me living in this world means we have to accept changes whether it is good or bad. He's right. Sorry everyone, I'm being long winded again. Forgive me, I just need to talk. I'm afraid to see for what's coming next year. I don't know why. I'm not ready to see you again yet I miss you badly.

So I'm not happy for the TerataiS this year. They retake the exam and it is definitely more difficult. Unfair for them. None of my business actually :/ That's not the part. The streaming was kinda.. messy I think. It doesn't make sense at all. I don't think my result's better than Shoe's and I don't think I reached Mel's standard. Please, I'm not trying to be humble. How the hell I even get into the same class as her. By the way, Shing, it's our 11th year to be classmate and Mel, we're in the same class again after four years :)

Holiday = spend $
(further explanation next post)

Mm.. I was gone for 8 days. Spent 2 and a 1/2 days in Guang Zhou, visit my dad's friend before spending 5 and a 1/2 days in Beijing following tour. If you read Shing's blog, that's the place we went also. Follow tour ma -_-

Guang Zhou, mom's mom's hometown and dad's mom's hometown. Weather's cooling, around 27 to 12 degree celcius. Humidity's sama dengan Malaysia. Food was nice. Malaysia's best still.

Beijing's weather is DRY and cold. Humidity's ZERO and the temperature was around 4 to -8 degree celcius. Cold till so SYOK. We get to see the left over melted snow freeze on the ground but we didn't get to see it snowing :( It was snowing on 21st but I was still in Guang Zhou. Winter had arrive long ago in Beijing but because of the humidity's so low, it snow only once. Food in Beijing tastes like how everyone mentioned. Oily and salty but thanks to our tour guide, she informed the cook everytime before each meal. Fishes there are ikan air tawar not like Malaysia's ikan air masin so the fishes there have lotsa bones. Toilet wasn't like how everyone said. Doorless disgusting toilet. Nope. To welcome Beijing Olympic 2008, they improved a lot. Buildings in Beijing boleh dikatakan setaraf dengan Tokyo (from what I see). Toilet is still dirty but what do you expect from public toilet? Malaysia's public toilet not very clean also. Doors are built for toilets. Mmhmm. I don't need to pee with my naked butt facing outside accept for once.

I do not compare Malaysia with China because both have their good and bad points. Believe me, China's internet is so much faster than Malaysia's. They doesn't celebrate Christmas but they do decorate. Because earth is having weird terrible weather, we experienced turbulence for all 4 flights, from Malaysia to Guang Zhou, Guang Zhou to Beijing, Beijing to Guang Zhou and Guang Zhou to Malaysia. China is so big that distance from Malaysia to Guang Zhou is equivalent to Guang Zhou to Beijng. Both flight took 3 and a 1/2 hours.

8 days in China, I saw only a cat, in Guang Zhou. Dogs, tons. No stray dogs. Dogs in Beijing lives a better life than Malaysian dogs because they're all given clothes to wear and because all citizen are allow to have only one child, they adopt dogs. Furthermore, dogs are allow everywhere for you know why Malaysian dogs aren't. Here's the point. I don't think eating dogs are cruel. You see, Chinese eat dogs. To keep themself warm in winter but they only eat stray dogs. Isn't it better to make use of the stray dogs to keep human warm than leaving them get wacked and infected on the streets? Years ago, when donating organs was introduced, human think it's cruel getting one's organ out disturbing one soul's peace but now what do we think about it.

Are you happy today? c=

미안하다, 사랑한다

why does my heart still ache
soothe the pain
you might as well
just kill me
I'm so tired of living

no honey for me this time

My throat~~ help @.@
Went to Dr. yesterday. Was having fever. Feeling better today.

Here are the recipes as promised.

Oreo Cheesecake/Cappuccino Cheesecake

Chilled, non-baking Oreo Cheesecake for those who have problem with their oven like me.
Right-click the pic to open in new tab for printing.

For normal cheesecake, use crushed digestive biscuit for based. For Oreo Cheesecake, remember licking out all the cream. Do not use the cream together. For Chilled Oreo Cheesecake, sponge cake for base are optional. Happy Baking! ^^

I'll be leaving M'sia at 8.20 tomorrow morning, so I'll be at airport around 6 something -__- why am I even writing this here.

I know it's early but this may be my last post before Christmas. So..
Have a Merry Christmas everyone!
Enjoy your last bit of Holiday
and Happy New Year!
May God bless you all.

Here's something sentimental.
Time's like accelerating, every year's getting shorter and shorter.
Another year is going to end soon.
I hereby thank you everyone.
Yes. I mean everyone, thank you for being here for me the whole year. Each of you make a difference in my life and I want you all to know that I appreciate you guys.

I sound so.. I dono. Sorry la.

Are you happy today? :]

미안하다, 사랑한다

Don't miss me x)
I'll be back on 28th.